OH bloggie !

its a FORBIDDEN LOVE ? HAHHAHA

gila . soalan pertama ketika menemui kenyataan itu adalah ::

Ada kah kita berdosa ?

hahahaha nang gila la . from grk to abg . now UNCLE :) hahaha

im related to the Nang's family . hahaha bangga ku youu :)

cos ku x sangka ada related ngan dak nya .

no wonder la first kenal alu dekat ! HAHAHA duhal related .

my akik duhal uncle dak nya . yerr ! hahaha

PERCAYA la . Tuhan itu maha adil . bnyk lagi yg kita blm ketahui ;)

sapa gk realted ngan aku tokk ?! haha juh . ekot jejak kasih jak kita . wuuu ~

this is me :)

velintina rameh . before going to the appreciation night dinner .

i curl my own hair . straightened it . do my own make up .

do my own dressing . all me xD HAHAHA

im showing it off . YEAH > so ? no use right ?

WTH ? like who cares :p

22nd dec 2010 !

a very sad day for all the mycs carolling team .

we all were waiting for syllester to come .

but he failed to showed up .

he had a n motorcycle accident . :(

*sob sob*

everyone was crying and started praying for him .

he broke his leg badly . bu he is okayy now .

sempat lagi he main main time they all bilem and tracy

jenguk him . happy him ada kaki besi -.-'

hahahaha ! silly syllester .

kami semua merindui anda APEKCAK ;)

NAILS OH NAILS :D

why do i love you so much ? ;)

When I look in the mirror, all that I can see is my FACE .

then i look at my nails . ergghh ! empty . white . zero . meaningless nails .

uhhh ! i need to change it . first it was red . second was black .

then it was purple . then it was black black purple and red red .

then i change it again to red red and black black black .

now its black and red on top only ;)

aww ~ okayy everything is complete now .

FACE not gonna change a thing !

thank you God for this face that you had given me :D

NAILS you're too gorgeous babe !

HAIR aww i love you . natural curl with paper bag :) old fahsion style of curling it temporary .

if you love you hair and don't want it to be ruin . do avoid using the usage of heat :D im serious girl !

is that all ? hmm im not sure . wait . wanna redo my left hand . goshh !

i can't do it perfectly :( so sad ! tattttttaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa bloggie .

P/S : again and again . im not surprise :'(

do i look different here ?

yes or no ? no one can answer me .

I woke up early today . wondering what should i do with my hair .

why is it so complicated for a girl to make up her mind ?

as a 15 year old girl some people said that my action are beyond my age .

im not really that bad . its true !

im just a unique person who loves to do lots of crazy thing .

if you don't explore the world now ?

or try something that is not you ?

when will you ?

someone told me this before :

Let go off the past and do not take a U-Turn
Live the moment of your choice
Rewind the past only to learn
and deafen the hurting noise!

to summaries it

MOVE AHEAD

GO BEYOND

:D

then , NEVER regret the things that you did :D

aww ~ smk lutong

Feel every moment you live,
For you do not know,
When the sun will stop rising,
Become who you were born to be,
For everyone is here for a reason,
Discover the meaning of life,
You will know when you’ve found it,
The warm heart, and sound of tiny toes,
Pitt-pattering on the floor

The sound of giggling and laughter,
Where there was none before.

I have DOMO ;) you have ? nooo . neyyyyy :p

xtauk knak me gila domo . aww ~

cute alu bnda tokk . kekadang kdk ganas juak upa nya .

tp selalu nya CUTE :) hahaha

dot dot dot . ya jakk ;)

Who among us has not felt the sadness of love?

Love comes unexpectedly and leaves unexpectedly

leaving us shattered, broken, full of pain

rejected and dejected and than we try find solace in words

by reading and writing sad love poems .

lalalalalalalalalalalalalala ~ what in the world am i writing about ?

yeahh its shit stuff . don't read it . you'll regret it !

I remember the first time you held me in your arms,
the first time you said “i love you.” the first time you kissed my forehead.
you were always so gentle and sweet. no matter how far we were you were always there for me through it all. i trusted you, you promised me the world and thats what you gave me. i couldnt have asked for anything better. so what happened to us? our perfect love was ended so quickly, so hurtfully..
everything came to an end . my heart stopped and shattered.
last thing you told me was “stay away from me you'll get hurt”
i couldnt understand why this is this happening . we were so madly in love.
nothing could seperate us .
my questions shall never be answered.

okeng . copy paste plus tambah sendiri :p

I don’t know how to say goodbye

So I’ll just except the pain

I will no longer cry tears of hope

For there’s no satisfaction to gain

So ill whisper a silent goodbye

While wiping the tears from my eyes

as all the late memories past gone by

i'll still see you in my mind

Tell me when the pain is over

I keep moving on but I’m not getting foreword

Sometimes I long to go back to your arms

To listen to the beat of your lying heart

Can’t you hear me crying out your name

Or don’t you give a damn about my pain

You will never understand what you’ve done to me

Its like describing the sting of a thousand bees

Your face keeps hunting me ,even in my dreams

You knew that my soft spot was you

Lying to me while I believed that it was true

Just know that I will remember you

Is there a better place

To be right now

Than to be home

Listening to the crickets’ sounds

Outside the windows

Than in the bed

Closing my eyes

Falling into a deep sleep

To forget about the days

Forget about the nights

Forget about you

Just like a rainbow after the rain . A good thing will always happen after you experience pain :)

things are getting much more complicated nowadays . im happy with what im living now . its a dream come true to have such wonderful peoples around you . but it turns out to be the worst night mare ever when it comes to dumping a persons heart . i never had such thing in mind till the day that i realize that i can't do this anymore . i cant pretend to say i love you to those that i don't really love and most of all i can't force myself in loving you just for the sake of not being single .

it all started with a blurry vision of a proposal which came true one day . i wasn't expecting anything from the joke that we make . to tell the truth i didn't mean to play your game and make you fall in love . as a normal human being who freaks people alot . i really do like you for who you really are . but for now . to tell the truth . that feeling ends there . dot dot dot ! i can't go on with it anymore . i miss the old you . who jokes around with me all day long .

why cant we be friend ? i prefer you as a friend . even tho the'now' you is way much better but i still can accept the fact that im saying yes to you for no reason . if you ask me million question of my feeling towards you i'll answer it directly by saying i do like you . but i'll be very silent when you ask me do i love you ? . its the end of that conversation for the day . i get all mess up with the pro and cons of our relationship . most of all when i start to look at myself and see that we don't have common anymore . between me and you there's a sallow line which makes us apart . this line cause me to realize that we're not meant to be .

you're to kind ! finding the perfect guy who really accept me as who i am is very difficult . no offence ! its true . but then i can't repay you back . i'm afraid that if one day i may not be the same person that you wish to be with before . people change and my heart change . the feeling towards you never change . but the truth that im telling you had change now and forever . i can't be with you anymore . that the only word that i can say . saying goodbye is always the hardest words . but why must forever ?

yeaa . i don't understand myself . i can't even control myself . i still want my old life back . tho' you can't live with my reasons . so do i . i know i'll regret the decision that i'll make . but i know that im doing the right thing for now . i can't move on with this fake face anymore .

if you're reading this . im sorry . but its the truth that i can't hide no more inside of me :(

yeah mann ! tokk la my geng tewk . hahahaha
janji we all anen , me , steph , keith , phel and anna temu .
tapi ujung ujung cuma me , keith , phel , anna , misel and misel's fren .
tapi awal la i say . GILA ! hahaha today was the best day xD hahaha
jumpa with all facebook addict tewk ! ahhaha
i bought one little small domo for myself today ! HAHAHA ;)
keith and misel oso ada xD yerr apa gk . ali la we all show off tewk . hahaha
nang caliee la . dah la we all keep on running around .
i jumpa alice too tewk xD hahahaha waaa rindu my pon pon .
dah la me tetiba kena serang gastrik this morning .
untill now masih sakit . what to do ? tahan jak la . hahaha
btw , tadi at parkson i jumpa manda and jb ;) yerr bha . hahaha dating x ajak org . HAHAHAHA
GOSH ! i love my gay hat ! hahaha it goes toink toink all the time . ahhaa
mas parade tewk . eee ! rimas gila . the hat mala jak mok tanggal dari palak . haha
longgar bha :( gara gara sapa ? entahh !
ayooo . misel bawa me to her bdy aprty tmrw .
tapi rasa nya i cant come la :( got carolling bha . party ya di taman awam .
plus me neyda transport g cnun . yeahh mann ! hahaha
me jumpa with pat juak tewk . hahahaha eyy banyak lagi la . ahhaha haiyoo .
biar tinggal lam otak tok jakk . ahhaha anna tinggal kan me tewk ngan they all danny jakk .
she pegi with her boyfie :D hahahahaha calieee bha :( x ajar org . ahhaha i dont mind to menyendat there :p ouhhh ya ! i hugged anen too ! aww ~ hahahaha lelah pusing2 cari anen tewk . last2 jumpa at the stall makanan . hahahaha aww ~ how i wish this parade doesnt end today :(

New friends ! :)

bloggie ! yesterday was the last day of the christmas bazaar . :)
the total profit that we all got is aroung 2000 ++ :) weee ~
i never see so much money in my entire life before . hahahaha
goshh ! but then that is not enough . we loan from the christ teen about RM2500 .
naaaaaaaaaaaaaa ! seeee have to bayar hutang pula -.-'

skip that topik . hahaha ALLELUIA ! at least we did our bestt .
hopefully the carolling house to house could help in covering all of it .
14000 to go bebeh ! gagagagaga SPAIN ! here we come :P

marek kan bloggie . i jumpa with anna lipang ! hahahaha
nang x sangka la . me , bero and phel sebok talking2 .
berjiwang2 la we all there then gila gila ber-TALKING TO THE MOON ! hahahaha
then bero eksen2 mok naggis . ahhaha then anna datang .
i jump atas with bero . she said " eeee ! ngga sama la muka torang duak . mati mati ku pke adek badek ! hahahaha " me and keith was like ... EEE ! adek badek la tokk . hahaha yeahh mann ! terer kan kami berlakon ! HAHAHAHAH " then she geram sendiri . hahahaha
after that drama . me . bero . phel and anna anddddd her friend went to parkson together .
YEAHH ! beli handphone baru . hahahaha
bero yang pilih for me . ahha up down all around . cari cari kedai handphone . ujung2 we all agree to buy menokia x2 like his phone -.-' hahaha sama kaler gk ya . RED ! :) hahahaha
mun da masa klk i show off kan the phone here bloggie :p

ohh yaaa ! EVERYDAY i jumpa with SHANNEN MICHELLE . hahahaha
she panggang2 babi . weeee ~ haha me kan jadi promoter . putar2 here and there ngga orang jakk . marek nawk . its the foirst time ber chit chat lam2 ngan nyaa . haha aww ~ pegi plkn nyaa . haha syukk gk ya . all the best anen ! ;)

CHRISTMAS PARADE TOKK KITA SEMUA JUMPA KAEE ? ;) awww ~

p/s : gk teman anna tokk . ahha merepakk nya . hahaha nang dasar otak budak tadika la org nok plh anna manas tokk . x pke alu org ya -.-' ahahaha kan anna ? :p

im starting to asking myself again -.-'
which one is it ?! come onn !
not again ! im not gonna fall for the second time .
no more ! please la .
cut the crap you stupid headeck freak !

The perfect measure-i just can't breath

today ! :)

ith 4th december 2010 . ---> my lil sis VANESSA AK MELING 5th birthday :)

at the same time too its the first day of the christmas baazar . :)

we'll be selling a lots f things there .

1. books

2. toys

3. posters

4. cards

5. stickers

6. bookmarks

7. pictures

8. kacang kuda

9. chicken wings

10 . stick foods

11 . watermelon & guava

12 . drinks ( cincau + sarsi)

13 . PORK ! :)

do come to our stall and help us to raise enough money for the WORLD YOUTH DAY :)

God bless you all .

weeeeeeee ! bloggie !

FINALLY ! im home today . hahaha as always la . LATE !

i followed danielle back home just now . Donald was too busy merajuk with all of us . just because we insult him too much . HAHAHAHAHA kesian him . waittt . noooo ! i don't kesian at HIM . HAHAHA everyone was like EEEEEWWWWWWWWWWWWW at everything that he does . hahaha actually we're just playing a prank on him . nothing much really . hahaha tomorrow he'll bring all of us to see movie ! PARKSON MODE ON ! after carolling practise la .

bloggie !

abie called me yesterday ;) hahahahha

it had been for 2 days that we didn't meet :'(

HAHAHAHA ! he'll be going to Kuching this coming Friday .

waaaaa ! bye bye bie . *waving

take care okayy bie ?

*jangan engkau menjeling jeling di sana :p

BLOGGIEEEEEEE !

i wish his mom a HAPPY BIRTHDAY !

duhh ! who cares right .

BUT I DO CARE :) aww ~ hahahaha

happy birthday aunty . > last sunday <

BLOGGIE ! (again) * i have got to stop with this shouting :p

My cousin just gave birth yesterday .

ITS a GIRL :) weee ~

Trasia lusi * wink wink . i love you new niece :*

BLOGGIE ! (again and again)

they all abie plan a bbq party before or after we take the pmr result .

hopefully its before la . otherwise , some og us will be crying :'(

i don't wanna be one of themm . ( the one who cries )

NO NO NO ! dear LORD , i pray that i'll have a good result . AMEN :D

brenda and cassie

BRENDA > KERA <3 <--- i love her .
speechless . hahahaha i just love her :p



cassie > BABUN <3 <--- i miss her .
muka tembok like me . bergambar here and there :P

Happy One Month Anniversary :)

okayy . today is the day . :)

happy anniversary dear Mohd . Sabri :)

i woke up early this morning . for i have a meeting to attend .

before arriving at the meeting place .

i text him first . saying good morning and happy anniversary :)

after mass we planned to go to parkson .

we promise to meet up at 1 o'clock .

manda and fifie was there with me taht time .

sadly , he was LATE ! :(

late for one hour . so i called his phone number .

he said that he wasn't coming .

i was like ppfftttt ! OK SET !

terus we all cadang beli the ticket wayang at that moment juga .

hahahaha CHILL VELEN :D yeaa i was chilling that time .

actually i know he was playing . but that stupid half of my mind still can't believe what he just'd said . GOSH ! hahahaha i can feel the BURN inside of me .

then we all go to SUGARBUN to buy some food :)

then suddenly , BAMMM ! abie was right behind me .

i terus go off like that . hahaha JB was there too !

JB told mand that he's not coming .

manda almost cry that time . hahaha

ME TOO ! hahahaha :'(

then we all go buy ticket for the guys .

hisyam . abie . mirul and julius (JB)

we watch RAPUNZEL :) weee ~

very interesting movie ! :D

at first abie was asleep .

he said that it was boring .

i told him that the movie will be very fun and exciting .

and YES ! i prove him wrong :p

HE WAS AWAKE AND STAY AWAKE LAUGHING SEEING THAT MOVIE .

especially the chamillion and horse part . hahaha

then got one scene that rapunzel and eugene lepas kan the light thinggy .

he told me that next time we both will do that together ;)

awww ~ so sweet . hahaha

after watching the movie we went to McD . hahaha

abie was so HUNGRY that time .

all of us was hungry . but we let abie to do the waiting and all .

kesian juak me tengok him alone there .

so i decide to wait together with him <3

then bla bla bla we went for bowling ! :)

i tried to call kakak for so many times . but still . no answer :(

cannot meet up with kakak today . AGAIN .

bloggie . abie said that next week he's going to Kuching with his family .

WAAAAAAAAAAAAA :( hopefully the trip would not be so long .

i HATE waiting . SERIOUSLY !

OK SET ! . hahaha i have no idea what to write anymore .

good night bloggie . ;)

p/s : starting to miss you already ;)

The happiness that I’m looking for
is out of reach forever
Giving you a smile
Hoping you’ll understand
My life is already so beautiful
Because I once had you
Even though I’m like a meteor
I still want to light up your heart
I promise you I’ll do my best to breathe
To let the world know how much I love you
Even if it takes all my strength
I want to give you the happiest memories
Promise me you’ll cherish yourself properly
So I can leave without regrets
Tears will change to a sky full of stars
Protecting you
Twinkle twinkle little stars
That is me
Winking at you .

velen :D

Mohd sabri :) i heart you .

okayy . today 24/11/10
i made bubu a blog ;) wee ~
bubu chaiyokk ! i knw you can .
hahaha pa kha ? im bored mann !
neyy . atleast i got bubu with me . :D hee ~
last night was FUN !
hahahaha define fun velen .
F.U.N ! hahaha <--- how to define it ?
i don't know ? hahahaha
me . sis sasha and bro carl PORET sal one bitch !
aaaa ! gila . hahahaha bna bna la . i want to kick her ass . hahaha
backstabber bha nya ya !
then we all sambung pasal TOYOL and the SHEMALE :)
talking about shemale . GOSH ! my cousin uncle is a shemale .
BUT ! very PRETTTYYYYYYYYYY ;)
SERIOUSLY !

weee ~ i promise brenda to jalan with her tmrw .
well dah xda keja lain bha . hahahaha
the other pon pon exam now :(
rushi . alice . agnes . GOOD LUCK pon pon <3
me brenda danielle and henrieta jak jalan tmrw .
mok bawa pae eyy . later i ask la :D hahahaha

btw . i found nia yesterday :) hahahaha
thru fb la . lama she hilang . hahaha
we planned to go out together . wee ~
but don't know when :(

BLOGGIE ! 3 more days bloggie ;)
manda and jb are in !
DOUBLE DATE yaww !

BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO !

BUBU I HEART YOU ;)

DANIELLE BON :)

danie seraphina :)

dimana kah abie ?

bloggie :(

i don't know where is abie :(
since yesterday he hilang bha .
after the tyler ward thinggy he terus merajuk .
then i can't sleep till 4 am . duhh !
everytime x tenang nagn me cannot sleep bha .
i don't know why but i hate it !
i wonder where is he right now ?
GOSH ! seriously no replies !
wait velen wait .
CHILL velen !
lalalalallalalalalallalalala ~
CHILL GIRL !

Miley Cyrus - When I Look At You (Julia Sheer acoustic cover) - music video

when i look at you .

sing : julia sheer

guitar : tyler ward

when i look at you ;)

Everybody needs inspiration
Everybody needs a song
A beautiful melody when the night's so long
'Cause there is no guarantee that this life is easy

Yeah, when my world is falling apart
When there's no light to break up the dark
That's when I, I, I look at you

When the waves are flooding the shore
And I can't find my way home anymore
That's when I, I, I look at you

When I look at you, I see forgiveness, I see the truth
You love me for who I am like the stars hold the moon
Right there where they belong
And I know I'm not alone

Yeah, when my world is falling apart
When there's no light to break up the dark
That's when I, I, I look at you

When the waves are flooding the shore
And I can't find my way home anymore
That's when I, I, I look at you

You appear just like a dream to me
Just like kaleidoscope colors that prove to me
All I need, every breath that I breathe
Don't ya know, you're beautiful

Yeah, yeah

When the waves are flooding the shore
And I can't find my way home anymore
That's when I, I, I look at you
I look at you

Yeah, yeah, oh, oh
You appear just like a dream to me

the truth ! :)

A true friend is someone who knows there’s something wrong even when you have the biggest smile on your face.” Never try to hide your sorrows from your friends, they will find out anyway even if you tried hard.

inspiration from the past :)

if you love someone .

set them free .

if they return .

they were always yours .

if they don't .

they never were .

never frown when you're sad .

you'll never know

who would fall in love

with that smile of yours .

no one is worth for that tears of yours .

and the one who is worth would not make you cry .

to the world .

you may be one person .

but to one person .

you might be their world .

sometimes . someone can say something small

that can fit into in empty space in your heart .

if you love someone .

never put their name in a heart .

instead , put it in a circle .

that goes on forever .

while a heart can easily breaks .

some people say you only fall in love once .

but every time i heard your voice .

i fall in love all over again .

anyone can catch your eyes .

but it takes someone special to catch your heart .

you know you're in love .

when the hardest things to say is good bye .

if you can't get someone out of your head .

then maybe they're supposed to be there .

loving you is like breathing .

how can i stop ?

i believe in love like i believe in God .

you can't touch it .

you can't see it .

but you can feels its wrath .

when i see you .

i get that sick feeling in my tummy .

but it's the sick feelings i like to feel .

the worst way missing someone is

to have them sitting right next to you

but you know you can't never have them .

we come to love not by finding a perfect person

but by learning to love an imperfect person perfectly .

you know you're in love

when you don't want to go to sleep

because your life is better than a dream .

trying to forget someone you love is like

trying to remembering someone you

never knew in you life .

anyone can make you smile .

many can make you cry .

but it takes one person to make

you smile with tears in your eyes .

have you ever wonder what hes thinking

while looking straight at your eyes and smile ?

why are you afraid to lose the person that you love .

when they aren't even yours ?

you want to be the reason for their smile .

you'll never understand how much i love you .

while i'll never understand why .

thats the last thing you would think of . ;)

nahhh ! boring stuff i like to do .

inspired by one song that i heard .

i started to type type and type .

yeaa . im reading it twice .

but i can't really get what im writing -.-'

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA .

There is a fine line between a crush and love

the funny part is when

every love song makes me cry

for i'll start thinking about you

love is like playing the piano

first you have to learn

to play it by the rules

then you forget the rule

and played it from your heart

sometimes i like to wonder around .

asking myself some silly question .

is life really worth it ?

then i turn back and look at your smile .

i whisper in silence .

yes it does worth it . :D

Fireflies - Acapella Cover (Made by Voice, Mouth and Glasses) - Mike To...

abie . watch this bie :D

Teenage Dream & Just the way you are - Acapella Cover - Katy Perry - Bru...

The best thing about me is you. xD

barbie doll meet up with ultraman :D

once upon a time ,

there live a barbie doll and an ultraman .

they hate each other very much .

very very much . really hate each other .

did i told u they hate each other ?

very very much . hahahaha

one day . barbie was kidnap .

OH NOOO ! my preety little barbie said ultraman .

he search for babrbie high and low .

suddenly , he heard a cried underneath the a little pine tree .

there was barbie . sitting alone . crying her heart out .

ultraman asked her . what had happen . is she okay ?

barbie said . i'm lost :(

ultraman scratches his head . i though you we're kidnapped said ultraman .

no i was not said barbie . i fake it all up .

actually this sorry is fake too .

im not babrbie and u're not ultraman .

we're just velen's imagination .

curses you velen ! i wanna be real ! can i ?

NO YOU CAN'T said velen . mahahahaha xD

-the end-

dearest bloggie . i miss you . :)

ayyooo . caroling practice is cancelled again ! -.-'

hahahaha really can't wait for it bha :(

ayoo . lalalala ~ bie bie bie . :(

dia keja sekarang . HAHAHAHAHA

chaliee bha them . kan they all buka stall burger .

stall burger JIRAN MUDA ! hahahahaha

ohhh yaaa . jiran muda is the rpr membership for teenagers .

i think ? hmm something like that . hahaha

haiyooo . have to collect money now . bero really gila for that shirt . hahaha

plus plus my anniversary is coming soon . weee ~

abieeee . i cant wait for 28 nov . hahaha

btw , its his mom's birthday too .

happy anniversary to us and happy birthday abie's mom :D

weee ~ then the second anniversary will be on 28 december .

talking about 28 dec . its the day where we're going to take our pmr result .

whoaaa ! lucky us . hahahahaha all the best . HAHAHA

:D im playing with barbie doll . hahahha too bored . -.-'

oh ya oh ya . kakak is coming soon . again in miri . hahaha

this thursday ! weeeee ~ for two weeks . and mr.bun will be there too .

awww ~ i love seeing kakak with mr.bun . HAHAHAHA

Bruno Mars - Just The Way You Are (Tyler Ward Ft. AHMIR) - Acoustic Cover

Pink - Please don't leave me (live@4music)

Dear bloggie :)

aww ~ i miss you baby . :D

sorry for not updating you bloggie .
i've been very busy lately .
waaa :'( kesian my chicky bloggie .
always alone now . waaaa :'(
iwanna cry . soryy abie :(
i'll make it up to you okayy darla ?
if i got time . surely i jalan with you ;)
next week . im a bit free :)
we go any where you want okay darla :D
weee ~ hopefully i can meet you this monday .
i miss you abieeee :D
mamy say . if you wanna go there use the BUS . perghh ! -.-'
mala jak bha . haiyoo . hahha bus pun bus la :p
hahahahhaha
i'm a brave girl . hehehehe
bloggie . i'm speechless dy . hahaha
im waiting for my chicky . wee ~

MOHD SABRI BIN SARKAWI :)

idontloveyoulikeididyesterday :)

this guy ! keep on confusing me lately .
hahahhaha im in love with him is it ?
GOSH ! im not sure . hahahaha
am i ? yeaa POSITIVE im in love . :)
one moment . he would be nice to me . then BACK to the old sabri .
the one who always annoys me ! :P abie abie . causeiloveyoumorenow :)
he would tell me he hates me ! while back in his heart it was actually i love you velen :p hahahaha perasan me :)
i don't want to be perasan bah ! answer my question .
do you like me or not ? cause i know you do .
YES ! cintaku tidak bertepuk sebelah tangan :) i think ?
seee banyak bha i think ! im not sure . eyy ! this feelings sucks ! :(
give me an answer boyy . i don't wanna be a freak . :p
i hate waiting . hahahaha or let us take it slow ?

abie ! you knoe , efan bising2 tewk . time cikgu sanu . nasib cikgu sanu x dengar .
efan mdh . cikgu gerek abie ya cikgu ! apoo .
mok ku tampar . hahahaha ! tapi ee . efan ya 'kiut' gilak . hahaha

aww ~ im in love with you darling ! HAHAHAHA

good night :)

ini Natasha Vanessa Choo San Mae :)

saya baru sahaja mengenali nya beberapa bulan ini .

tetapi hubungan kami bagaikan seperti adik beradik .

ketika saya memerlukan nya .

dia sentiasa ada di samping .

walaupun berjauhan .

saya dapat merasai keberadaan nya disini

memberi sokongan dalam apa jua yang saya lakukan .

saya tidak lah mengenali nya sangat .

namun saya sangat menyayangi nya .

tahu tidak mengapa saya sayang pada nya ?
kerana dia sudah saya anggap seperti kakak kandung . :)

saya tidak pernah mempunyai seorang kakak seumur hidup ini .

walaupun ada saudara perempuan yang lebih tua .

namun kasih sayang yang di curah kan adalah berbeza .

semalam . saya sangat ketakutan .

bayang bayang hitam muncul di hadapan saya .

saya rasa ingin menaggis . kemudian nya bayang bayang itu memeluk erat saya .

saya rasa sangat nyaman berada di pelukkan nya .

namun tiba tiba dia hilang meninggal kan saya .

di dalam bilik yang gelap .

dah dengan cahaya yang malap di hujung bilik tersebut .

saya benar benar tidak dapat tidur ketika itu .

kemudian nya . sasha menghantar kan pesanan ringkas kepada saya .

dia hantar kan doa untuk saya baca kan .

saya baca doa tersebut lalu kemudian nya kembali tenang .

tanpa saya sedari saya telah tidur dengan lena malam itu .

betapa dia mengasihi ku . :)

terima kasih kakak ku yang cantik sasha :)

ini olang anda sekalian kenal bukan ?

ya ini dia . encik emparak keith owen nelson girl girl !

panjang bukan nama dia ? well , itu lah kenyataan nya .

terlalu dan terlampau panjang nama dia .

saya juga tidak tahu bagai mana hendak memanggil nya .

jadi saya panggil dia girl girl saja .

sememang nya dia adalah seorang lelaki yang bajikk :)

orang ini telah spon saya itu hari . hari pertama dalam hidup

saya lihat dia memakai itu baju biru . maaf ayat saya

tunggang terbalik . begini la cara nya orang menunggang motosikal ya .

semalam saya menunggang motosikal sampai terlanggar itu semak samun .

tapi akher nya saya pass juga :)

orang ini sudah saya anggap seperti abang kandung saya sendiri .

walaupun secara peribadi nya kami sangat jauh berbeza .

cita rasa yang berbeza . kehidupan yang berbeza . namun kami serasi

bersama sebagai kawan yang gila . hahaha kepelikkan nya itu telah

banyak membuka mata saya dalam mencari erti hidup .

saya suka memberi nasihat kepada orang . namun diri sendiri masih

tercari cari akan keidupan ini . nasib baik saya jumpa dia . sekarang , xda orang

berani ganggu saya . apalagi menyakiti saya . muka nya yang ganas itu namun anggun menawan

telah membuat kawan saya sendiri takut . tetapi mereka suka akan dia . kerana dia adalah orang yang baik . good girl ;)

Kotak-Tinggalkan Saja (HD Video Clip)

Jesse McCartney - It's Over - Official Video (HQ)

I am not a child now.
I can take care of myself.
I mustn't let them down now.
I mustn't let them see me cry.
I'm fine .

I'm too tired to listen.
I'm too old to believe.
All these childish stories.

I try but its so hard to believe.
I try but I can't see what you see.

My whole world is changing .
I don't know where to turn .
I can't leave you waiting .

I try to understand the distance and between .
The love I feel the things I fear and every single dream .

I can finally see it .
Now I have to believe all those precious stories .

ifoundyou :)

PMR :)

OOOOOOOOO . ini la masa nya . akhirnya tiba juga .

Akhirnya tiba juga hari yang di tunggu tunggu selama ini .
buat yang ke sekian kalinya aku dapat merasakan gemuruh yang semakin hendak meledak ini .
untuk yang pertama kalinya aku berasa begitu gementar .
aku tidak dapat merasakan apa-apa selain daripada degupan jantung ku yang semakin laju .
OH TUHAN . Engkau permudahkan lah jalan hambaMu ini Tuhan .
sememangnya aku belum bersedia 100% namun aku akn lakukan yang terbaik .
Straight A itu bagai kan sudah berada di gengaman . YEAH ! aku percaya . aku boleh !

MR LUDWIG LANG !

Ludwig Lang is a 15teen years old guy .
he is my bestfriend .
dah tiga tahun we both kawan .
but i never realize that he exist in my life for almost 8 years .
how sad ! he always know how to comfort me with the silliest jokes .
he'll never let me fall in deep sadness . he can't even stand of seeing me crying .
like just now . aaron hides my teddy bear .
he was like stop it aaron . don't make her cry or i'll kill you .
whoaa ! didn't see that coming .
he ever told me that .
oo velen . just play any prank on me .
i don't mind it . not even a bit .
even if you spit on me .
i'll still be smiling .
seeing you happy is enough .
its time to end your suffering .
4 months is enough girl . HAHAHAHA !
and i was like ? what ?? hahahha okayy .
today lagi teruk . He quarrel with his mom .
just because he can't go out .
to my party . well he plan at first .
the he say i need to see velen and everyone .
aww ~ what a good friend you are . :)
Thank you .
i still remember you hugged me for the first time .
and you said that you really misses me .
it had been a year that we didn't see each other .
and today . you did the same thing .
i didn't cry . but i want to .
but i felt nothing . hmm
sorry . :(

ifoundyou :)

The Party !

okayy ! it did not went like what we plan .
but we had fun . :)

morning .
as usual . i'm going for youth mass .
this time i came earlier than before .
i was planning to meet LALA there .
and yeaa . i found her .
by the parking lot . hahaha
then we both hugged . like always .
we talk and talk and talk .
until its time for her to go home .
at the corner of the church .
i saw brenda . then we both hugged .
again as usual . aww ~ i love hugs !
brenda went for mass two time !
wow ! sanggup . hahaha thank you pon pon .
then we both hides from alice .
still , at the end . BUSTED ! hahaha
i told alice the truth . TRUTH :)
i didn't cry bloggie .
it felt AWESOME man ! hahaha
i love her . no . i loves her . hahaha
and bla bla bla .
too much dramas just now :D
and we liked it !

evening .
party almost starting !
mummy sent me to the canteen to buy all the stuff .
then after that . i made some sandwiches for them .
THEY LOVE IT ! :)
okayyy . Let me start from here .

it was 3.09 pm . and i was worried that no one will come .
i don't even bother to call anyone .
cause im afraid of their answer .
suddenly my phone rings !
ohh , it was from bryan .
he invites me to parkson and marina .
sorry . i can't come :(
then i ring again !
Holi is on her way ! yeaaa :)
then she arrive . shiiuu . what a relief .
after 10 minutes like that stacy and Elvira come .
Lagi la me happy .
el datang2 jak play with my hair .
kan i ikat my hair pony tail .
she keep on saying its cute . hahhaa
ALAMAK ! perasan me . hahaha
then we chit chat . well girls :P
suddenly , they say . TEMAN TAPI MESRA ?
WTH ? hahha its about me and Ludwig .
xda pa2 la u guys . hahaha we're friends only .
set that in your mind .
suddenly , Ludwig text me .
kan he plan for all of this .
tetiba jak he say he cannot come .
his mother wouldn't allows him to go out last minutes .
WTH ?! i just reply like that .
but i don't really mean it .
but he takes it too serious .
he keep on saying sorry .
i can't reply him back that time .
i don't have credits .
aaron was on his way to my house that time .
he was hoping so much for Ludwig to come .
he don't want to be the only guy that time .
after finish charging his phone .
he text Ludwig . He told us that Ludwig is fighting with his mom .
His mom wouldn't let him out .
He was begging and so on . i don't want to hear it anymore .
gosh ! i eel so terrible .
i told aaron to tell him that no need to come .
i can understand that . no worries .
but he insisted . he still want to come .
at the end . he end up walking alone to my house .
awww ~ his house is quite far from mine .
still , he sanggup to do so .
datang datang jak ..
he sit down beside aaron and layan diri .
i was smiling and laughing alone .
bet the girls know what im thinking about .
the funny things is that he just start to mumble around like crazy .
we started taking photos after that .
jealousy struck when i come for aaron and stacy . :)
i miss them . we all kacau them both tadi .
especially Elvira . mala jak kacau orang . tapi sendiri malu malu kucing :P
tetiba aaron main with this one bug .
me pula curious . haahha
i was playing with it too .
pelik ? tapi bena . hahaha
we mala jak scream here and there . hahaha
shukkk ! hahaha sott .
banyak la we do . i can't barely type anymore .
HAHAHAHAHAHA ! i just love today .

ifoundyou :) for the last 8 years :)

This 3 girls are the best ! :)
they all yang x pasti mok dtg tetap menghadir kan diri . hahaha
aww ~ i miss them already .

baju puteh : Elvira @ kiut !
she keep on merendah diri at the same time puji puji diri . hahaha
baju hitam : Holistar @ sott !
Holi tak habis habis ketawa . and talk about ******** :) hahahah evans .
hancur my teddy bear kena youu eyy :P
Baju purple : Stacy @ mummy !
ngegeh ! hahaha first2 yerr cool abis . then grk dtg . OMG ! hahahaha
control . hahahaha tapi tetap sweet :)
alien belakang : ORANG YANG MERAJUK DARI PAGI HINGGA PETANG :)

I'm over your lies,
and I'm over your games.
I'm over you asking me,
when you know I'm not okay.

Wanting you,
to be wanting me.
No that ain't no way to be.
Moving on, it's my time,
you never were a friend of mine.
Hurt at first, a little bit,
but now I'm so over.
I'm so over it.

I'm over your hands,
Trying to drag me down,
and fill me with self-doubt.

Don't call,
don't come by,
ain't no use,
don't ask me why,
you'll never change,
there'll be no more crying in the rain.

i can dream of the old days .
life was beautiful then .
i remember the time .
i knew what happiness was.
let the memory live again .
i must think of a new life .
i mustn't give in .
:)

all my troubles seem so far away now .
but then ,
it seem like there's here to stay .
suddenly , im not the one i use to be .
seem like ,
there's a shadow living over me .
:)

A true love really hurts .
trying to forget all my feelings .
teardrop . rolling on my face .
here in my heart !
there's a determination of losing you once more .
and im ready this time .
:)

Your hands in mine .

hey you ! yea you .
don't you realize that i would always be there for you ?
don't you know that you hurt me a lot ?
i guess you noticed it .
just that you don't bother right ?

Hey girl !
don't cry in front of other anymore .
don't show them your weakness .
and never never let them fail you for the second time .

life is easy ?
depends on how you take it .
it could be hard and easy .
Humans are weird sometimes .
they take simple things so complicated .

Yesterday . let it be yesterday .
never do what you did last time .
never repeat your mistake again .
never let i happen in the future .
create some new environment in your life .
open a new chapter and keep on living with it .

someone told me today .
that this person is never gonna be in love again .
because it hurts so much .
their words can't be trusted .
but why do we keep on hoping for more ?
then , i kept silence for a moment .
flash back for awhile .
whoaa ! mine is complicated too .
break up hook up !
overall BULLSHIT !
i had enough of it .

now . wait . for the time to come .
wait for the right one .
never rush this matters .
and prepare for more to come .

:)

Believe that in this topsy turvy world in which we have to live, so bereft of peace and so far from God, God is present; loving, giving himself, pouring his peace into souls of good will.

Faith lays hold of the good things to come that are the object of its hope, as if they were already present.

God gives us no more than we can bear; and he gives patience first.

its okayy :)

saya paham . anda tidak akan pernah membuat hal yang sedemikian bersama atau kepada saya .
anda cuma mengharapkan saya yang berbuat demikian . tetapi mengapa ? ada kala nya terasa juga seperti di pergunakan oleh anda ? kenapa anda tidak pergi sahaja dari ingatan ini ? suka sangat anda mengacau kan ? perlu kah anda begitu . saya tengah menahan diri ini . menahan dari tanggisan . dari kegembiraan . dari segala nya . sememang nya itu bodoh . tetapi saya harus berbuat demikian . jika bukan sekarang . bila lagi ? bila lagi ? bila lagi ? lebih baik henti kan segala nya sekarang juga sebelum semua nya terlambat . dan saya hanyut di bawa perasaan sendiri .


eeewwwwwwwwwwwuuuuuuuu ! pa di padah ku tokk ? hahahaha

ilovethewayyoulie :))

OHHH NOOOOOOOOOOO !

hari yang indah . waaaa !
bangun awal2 pagi dengan senyyuman yang lebar .
mamy oso pelik tengok me . hahaha
after semua selesai . ambik kasut mok tunggu bus .

okayyy . kasut pengawas hitam ku di capai .
aduhh ! kasut sebelah kanan terpelanting ke tepi pagar .
pelikk . bukan i put tepi ka ?
okayyy . kasut kiri dah masok kaki .
kasut kanan pula . buka tali kasut .
masok kaki .
eeeeyy ! pal got something tolak my legg ???
APA BENDA TOK ?!
TIKAM KASUT !
TOINK TOINK ! FROGGY IN MY SHOES !
Mamy katak myyy .
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
mamy and everyone can't stop laughing . :'(

OKAYYY ! today lagi . datang skol . aduhh !
tertidur dlm bus . akai !
good thing terbangun on time . hahaa
at school . awal pagi kena tumbuk azrie . hahaha
then diam him . hey ex kekasih ku . sakit tau :P
hahahahahha ! padan muka . diam terus .
then tetiba . juhh ! kita g rpr gik mok ? hahaha
apa kha ?! pa mimpi kwu ?
xda suka2 ngaco kwu .
OKAYYY ? hahahhaa

Hisyam kena ikat rambut mcm perempuan . hahaha
kan he sit sebelah me . i can't stop laughing .
and he can't stop making me laughing . hahaha
then cikgu conie golong2 kan his hair .
then he buat2 mcm pondan . he say .
sudah la tuuu , i maluu niee . ~ eerrr ! hahahaha
sakit perut ku ktawa ..

time class tambahan . me and gabriel harry gaduh .
i xmok call him love 1 today . merajuk with him .
he curang with syedahh . hahaha
ngengg ! then he tried to talk to me . but then i xmok layan him .
then i laugh . pastu tuu mcm biasa balik laaa .
i keep on calling him LOVE . haha kacau him jakk .

balik rumah ! yeeaaa . finally . hahaha
sampai depan rumah . buka pagar .
mamy mana itu kunci ?
kejap kejapp aaa :)
AAAAAAAA ? mana kunci bah ?
apuu indai ? nama nyak ?
neyy . terkena kunci luar rumah sendiri .
hahahahahahaha ! indai indai :D
1 jam tunggu luar . haha
pintu xpat di pecah kan . i mean the kunci kunci pintu la .
akher nya dari pintu belakang kunci selamat di jolok :)
hahahahahahahah !

bangun dengan semangat sekali . katak pula dalam kasut . tertidur dalam bus . love love pula ngan gab . LUPAKK ! naggis coz abie bagi me kucing . :'( takut bha ! . terkunci dari luar rumah sendiri .
pa mokk jadi ? :p

it rained on the petals . it rained on me .
how i love the breeze blowing my hair .
felt like standing in front of a titanic :)
i wonder how it feels when you throw yourself from there ?
JUST THROW IT AWAY LA !

I FORGIVE YOU :)