things are getting much more complicated nowadays . im happy with what im living now . its a dream come true to have such wonderful peoples around you . but it turns out to be the worst night mare ever when it comes to dumping a persons heart . i never had such thing in mind till the day that i realize that i can't do this anymore . i cant pretend to say i love you to those that i don't really love and most of all i can't force myself in loving you just for the sake of not being single .
it all started with a blurry vision of a proposal which came true one day . i wasn't expecting anything from the joke that we make . to tell the truth i didn't mean to play your game and make you fall in love . as a normal human being who freaks people alot . i really do like you for who you really are . but for now . to tell the truth . that feeling ends there . dot dot dot ! i can't go on with it anymore . i miss the old you . who jokes around with me all day long .
why cant we be friend ? i prefer you as a friend . even tho the'now' you is way much better but i still can accept the fact that im saying yes to you for no reason . if you ask me million question of my feeling towards you i'll answer it directly by saying i do like you . but i'll be very silent when you ask me do i love you ? . its the end of that conversation for the day . i get all mess up with the pro and cons of our relationship . most of all when i start to look at myself and see that we don't have common anymore . between me and you there's a sallow line which makes us apart . this line cause me to realize that we're not meant to be .
you're to kind ! finding the perfect guy who really accept me as who i am is very difficult . no offence ! its true . but then i can't repay you back . i'm afraid that if one day i may not be the same person that you wish to be with before . people change and my heart change . the feeling towards you never change . but the truth that im telling you had change now and forever . i can't be with you anymore . that the only word that i can say . saying goodbye is always the hardest words . but why must forever ?
yeaa . i don't understand myself . i can't even control myself . i still want my old life back . tho' you can't live with my reasons . so do i . i know i'll regret the decision that i'll make . but i know that im doing the right thing for now . i can't move on with this fake face anymore .
if you're reading this . im sorry . but its the truth that i can't hide no more inside of me :(
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