THANK YOU AGAIN :)

saya sangat menghargai nya .
sekali lagi ma kasih ya :)

terimakasih . terima kasih .
itu saja yang mampu saya kata kan .

kak sya , dah gik . bna padah ayoi .
xpat di terus kan . its over . :D

ayoi . babun . aok velen tauk .
i'll try ayoi . give me 2 more months .

i'll give it a try everyone .
one more time :)

i'm haunting for it once more .
and this time i'll ask before i accept :)

28 / 08 / 10

outing with nia and jayjay :)
people jayjay was HOT ! rite kak nia ?
and very very sweet . aww~
hahahahaha!
me and nia jumpa jayjay at tempat wayang .
ngee ~ jayjay malu malu kucing . haha
i macam kenal that blue shirt guy .
then i started to scream YA NYA KAK NIA !
then that guy run away .
tempat yang tidak begitu strategik . haha
jayjay ! betul tekaan saya .
ada kah patut he tapok belakang poster ?
LELAKI PELIK . haha
but i miss this guy . haha
me and kak nia ekot suka ati jak bawa jayjay mana mana .
we pegi ladies punya kedai .
not underwears punya arr. haha
tempat like dresses gelang gelang like that la .
he ekot jak . wahhh ! best kan ?
every time nia ask jayjay .
jay ney kacak ? which one better .
she surely buy it :)
aww ~ best tengok them both . i tak rasa kekok langsung .
at the same time . my heart was crush buy something that i read .
they were there to comfort me .
at the same time kacau kacau me . hahaha
then we bought chocolate to make me feel better .
but i buy the same chocolate that makes my day get even worst .
then we all pusing pusing there . haha touring jayjay all over parkson .
ouh ya ! i jumpa with bunny bunny . ( aaron jason )
augustine , hazelton , neil , loreta , ivan , karen and cecilia .
weeeeeeeee ~~~ hahaha i pelok moo ! best . ngee ~
the last thing yang we do is going to the photo studio .
i spon them :)
later i'll upload the picture okay ? :)
i miss that moment :)
thank you for the fun day kak nia and jayjay .
ouhh ! before me lupa . syedah was there too .
after jayjay balik . i was alone :(
then i jumpa syedah at kfc .
memandang kan my mum blom ambik . so i join syedah and her family buka puasa .
hahaha we waited for almost half an hour for our food .
thank you syedah for having me there .
dinner was great ! with kfc . hahahaha
my mum sampai at 6.30 .
i went back at almost 7 . haha siam my mamy tunggu me lama makan .
then she hantar us to the church .
THE PRAISE AND WORSHIP WAS AWESOME ! :)
we all yang duduk depan apa lagi .
gila melompat sana sini .
kanak kanak riang :)

is it over ?

YEAH ! its over .
finally im free .
FREEDOM ! :(
but why do i feel im faking it ?
hey ! i smile and laugh .
but why do my tears fall ?
hate that feeling .
rite ?
people ! you have the right to choose .
to speak out .
to tell others how u feel .
and now im telling you how i feel .
i FEEL WORST !
why do we give hope and believe in it when we know its over ?
why do we keep on questioning ourselve with some stupid question when we know its no use ?
why do i keep on repeating the same old foolish thing again and again ?
why do people understand me so much ?
why can't i have what i wanted ?
why i keep thinking of others other than myself ?
why do i let myself be backstab by others ?
why do i have to put myself last in my life ?
why why why ? STUPID !
why am i talking to someone that would not reply my saying ?
why i can't just let it out in front of others ?
so that they know how hard it is for me to move on !
why do simple things have to be so complicated ?!
tell me why !
pon pon . friends . family . anyone .
don't let me fall for i know you all care . :/

I HATE YOU ,

OPSS ! SORRY I CAN'T :)

HATE IS NOT THE WORD FOR YOU .
BUT A BROTHER , YES YOU ARE .

I HATE YOU ,

OPSS ! SORRY I CAN'T :)

HATE IS NOT THE WORD FOR YOU .
BUT A BROTHER , YES YOU ARE .

gone ?

mr . color .
kenapa anda menghilang lagi ?
tidak ada line dan tidak anda sedar .
baru di tinggal kan selama 15 minit .
dan anda menghilang begitu sahaja .
kenapa bha ?
cepat sungguh .
hahahahaha

bloggie ,
ayoi dah da fon .
yeaa , tapi xda rasa jak me now .
hahaha
tadi syukk ayoi msg .
finally dapat personal talk with ayoi .
hahahaha then , tettttttt .
mood ku mengilang . haha
kertas exam jak yg we both pke now .

bloggie ,
sapa teman me this saturday ar ?
kak nia pick me up . then go paxen .
men bowling ! lepas tension . haha
then at nite baru me balik .
but then go to church first .
got youth musical concert .
jalan kaki sorang sorang at night ?
tak pa jak la .
sekali sekala .
hahahah
tapi harap harap got teman la .
mana tauk kan if tetiba terserempat with
they all brothers and sisters .
pat juak tumpang
or jalan sama later . haha
janji ada geng bha . waaa :(
oh Lord , guide me and help me .
amen :)

WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE !

EXAM OVER YAW ! :)

okay . hari ini genap lah 3 bulan kita berkenalan ya . haha
terasa seperti semalam . wkakaka
deyh deyh ! talian terputus . hahaha
nanti kita sambung lagi .
seperti biasa la .
khamis , diri ku memang sukar untuk tidur .
kenapa agak nya ya ?
kebiasaan agak nya . hmm
mr.color .
kemana pula anda menghilang ?
sudah cukup dua hari .
jangan di tambah kan lagi . haha

bloggie , this sTURDy kN
me teman kak nia and JJ dating . shhhhhhh !
hanya kita yang tahu okay ?
hahaha me apa lagi .
orang tengah lerr . haha
xpa xpa . janji my fren hepi , me hepi juga :)

Starlit !
OMG ! diri ku jatuh cinta pada cerita itu .
you have got to watch it .
channel 301 mon-wed 3.30 to 4.30 !
darn it !sebulan me tengok .
sebulan juga me naggis .
hahaha
biasa la my heart kan lembut.
chewah . hahaha


sudah sudah .
jangan di pasang lagi angan angan .
haha bangkit la duhai idiot .
dah idiot jangan di tambah kan lagi .
what am i saying ?
hahaha if you people read my blog .
do tell me .
does all of the thing that i've said
refering me as a real idiot ?

ANSWER ME PEOPLE !
I DEMAND U ! haha

Terasa pelik jika kita harus meninggal kan sesuatu yang kita selalu simpan .
aneh lagi jika perasaan itu menghilang sendiri .
sesuatu kebiasaan yang di tinggal kan terasa begitu luar biasa untuk di lepas kan .
tetapi apabila kita menyedari bahawa ia adalah untuk kebaikan .
kita akan mencuba sedaya upaya bagi kebahagiaan orang lain .
kenapa kita tidak memikirkan kebahagiaan kita sendiri ?
itu lah manusia , bukan tidak menghargai .
namun mereka tidak sanggup melihat orang yang disayangi turut terluka .
perkataan terluka sangat dalam dan tidak terungkai kesakitan nya .
namun seorang yang tabah masih kekal tersenyum dan berpura - pura akan kesempurnaan hidup yang tidak pernah nyata .
adakah masih wujud orang seperti ini ?
semesti nya masih .
manusia manusia ini sanggup terluka dan dilukakan .
luka yang di alami malah di hargai dan di kira berbaloi kadang kala .
ini adalah kerana mereka menghargai setiap detik dan setiap saat yang terluang bagi sesuatu yang pasti akan di tinggal kan suatu hari nanti .
namun begitu , mereka juga adalah orang orang yang lemah .
beban dan kesakitan yang terlampau banyak akan menyebabkan seseorang itu stress .
kebaikkan yang di lakukan kadang kala akan memyusutkan kesihatan mereka .
sememang nya semua ini tidak adil . namu itu adalah pilihan mereka .
pilihan yang tidak merugi kan bagi orang orang tertentu . :)

salam sayang orang tertentu :)

THEY SAW US TOGETHER ?

mother , don't get me wrong .
seriously , we are just friend .
i stress it out once again .
FRIEND !
:)

CAR WASH !

daddy grounded me .
washing his TUCSON car .
yeah ! i like that .
playing with soap and water .
hahhaa
me and my sibling
put our effort together
to clean the car .
:)

I'M WATCHING YOU !

i'll be watching you all the time .
whether i'm there or not .
i'll be checking on you .
muahahha
aren't you scare ?
hahah
hey , i'm a stalker .
you ask me to do so :P
remember ! jangan menjeling jeling .
do i have to remind you ?
hahaha
ouh yea ! if me pula yang mala jak see laki .
do tell me . haha
do the same thing to me .
wakaka
fair and square ! :)

TRIAL EXAM !

Wish me luck you guys .
this trial is very important .
wanna get more A this time.
amen .

:)

- roger and out -

!

FELT A BIT BETTER NOW .
SEEING THE CUPBOARD FULL OF REDONDO .
YEAH ! 2 WEEKS STOCK PEPS !

I CALLED JJ !
HE SOUNDED JUST LIKE BEFORE .
HOPE THAT HE DOESN'T CHANGE MUCH .

HOLI AND GAB ARE OKAY AGAIN .
WHAT A RELIEF .
ME AND MY BRO TRIED TO ADVISE THEM .

YOU STILL CARE ?
WOW ! I'M NOT SURPRISE :)
I KNOW YOU STILL CARE .

ARE YOU MAD ?
SORRY FOR NAGGING YOU ALL DAY LONG .
I JUST WANTED YOU TO BE OKEY .

WILL I BE MEETING YOU TOMORROW ?
HMM , HOPEFULLY .
DADDY AT MIRI NOW .

IF DADDY IS HERE
THEN I'LL BE GOING FOR MATER DEI .
BUT WHAT ABOUT YOUTH MASS ? THE MEETING ?

WILL DADDY LET ME GO ?
SHOULD I ASK HIM AGAIN ?
I'VE BEEN ASKING HIM FOR 3 TIME .

DON'T CHANGE ANYTHING !
I DON'T LIKE CHANGES .
I JUST HOPE THAT YOU'RE OKAY .

WHY ARE SO NICE TO ME ?
I'VE BEEN AVOIDING YOU FOR YEARS.
BUT YOU KEEP ON MAKING ME FEELING GUILTY .

THAT WEIRD FEELING IS COMING AGAIN .
OUHH MYY ! I MUST STOP THIS .
CLOSING MY HEART ! CLOSING MY HEART !

IDIOT ?
YES SIR ! I AM .
THANK YOU . ITS AN HONOR FOR ME :)

- ROGER AND OUT -

Marshall Junior :)

A best friend is
someone that who knows all
about you and loves you
always .
:)

• A best friend is like a four leaf clover, hard to find and lucky to have .

• A true friend reaches for your hand and touches your heart .

• The best kind of friend is the one you could sit on a porch with, never saying a word, and walk away feeling like that was the best conversation you've had .

SMILE :)

i wake up early today .
10 am . hahahaha !
i slept late yesterday .
3 am something .
online but silent . :D
keeping myself away
from all that would surprise me .
hahahahaha ! how funny .
something weird happen .
i dream that i ride a motorbike .
a huge one and won a race .
just to keep my partner save :)
what a nice dream it was .
i woke up with a big smile
on my face today .
hoping for something extraordinary happening .
still nothing happen now .
my family left miri an hour ago .
i'm all alone at home now .
i want to go out .
but its raining .
studies ? hmm later . haha
i called like almost everyone today .
i asking them to reload for me .
hahaha then i'll pay later .
but no one pick up .
suddenly , Ludwig pick up his phone .
what a relief . LUDWIG :)
selalu ada . hahaa
the Jerina pick up her phone .
she'll be going here later she said .
weaahh ! my friends are going for a party here .
hahahaha
what do i have in my refrigerator ?
NOTHING ?
a bunch of chocolate , cola , fruits , water , bread ,
honey , milk and many more .
what should i do ?
hmmmm
hah ! later we'll think of something .
let's do it together :)

ouh ya ! i have chips more .

more chips more fun :D hahahahaha!
can't wait for them to come .
hopefully jadi .
since i cannot go out because of the rain .
rain rain go away..
come again another day ..
velen's friends want to come :)

- roger and out -

it's not my fantasy .

State the obvious, i didn't get my perfect fantasy .
So watch me strike a match on all my wasted time.
As far as i'm concern, you're just another picture to burn.
He tells me about his night and i count the colours in his eyes.
He'll never fall in love he swears as he runs his fingers through his hair.
I'm laughing cuz' i hope he's wrong. I don't think it ever cross his mind.

and now im laughing all alone .
stalking you here and there .
ouh , how funny life can be .
let's wait and see what's happening next . :)

Purple kaler line : nieno .
blue kaler line : velen .

I've done it again .
yea , she was right .
if its meant to be , then there's nothing to worried about .
if its a dump hopes then just let it go .
why must you always be right ?

i've sleep for almost 4 hours this evening .
seriously , very tired .
i can't sleep this morning .
thanks to daphnie for taking care of me in class just now .
i don't know why suddenly i caught fever .
she let me rest at her place there and look after me .
so that i can sleep peacefully .

today there's a bit of a crisis between someone and someone .
then it got worst when both of them started to say about death .
this is no kidding you guys .
you can't simply says things like that just because you're mad .
i just don't like this situation .
it hurts enough for me to see it .

monday . gerak gempur sarawak .
i'm not ready yet .
and still i'm not studying .
why ? i can't focus .
i only can focus when there is someone to guide me in studies .
like at school .
i have my teachers and friends .
at home ?
noisy ! waa :(

the only day that i'm waiting for now is Sunday .
meeting my pon pon and to receive the Eucharist .
i think i better stop here for now bloggie .
feeling a bit tired now .
i was waiting for a text to be reply .
but i guess there's no answer .
to tell the truth .
yea i miss you .
there ! :)

-xoxo-

Daddy is back !

weee ~ dad is back .
haiyo ! balik balik jak daddy dari brunie
terus banyak my cousin text me .
semua minta chocolate .
hahaha ingat my daddy apa ?
kilang chocolate ka ? haha
haiyaa ! not fair .
semua go kuala belait tomorrow .
me jak tinggal miri .
so not fair ! waaa
eyyhh ! xda me stay at home .
pergi jalan me tomorrow .
sapa baca tok text me .
hahhaha
we go jalan . oke ?
parents say aok jak . heee
ok set ! green light . hahha
where to go ar ?
haiyo . text me people !
text me . haha
need to go out towk .
hahaha

eyhh ! i'm out . heh !
sakit mata online . waaa :(
HAHAHAHA!

I miss my friend
The one my heart and soul confided in
The one I felt the safest with
The one who knew just what to say to make me laugh again
And let the light back in

I miss the colors that you brought into my life
Your golden smile, those cheerful mood
I miss your gentle voice in lonely times like now
Saying it'll be alright

What is done has been done for the best
Though the mist in my eyes might suggest
Just a little confusion about what I'll lose
But if I started over I know I would choose
The same joy the same sadness each step of the way
That fought me and tought me that friends never say
Never say goodbye

Thank you dearest friend .
you guys had been there for me all the time .
to support and to comfort me :)

i love you all .

- velen -
roger and out
xoxo

Mr . Color :]

as usual the tune of the guitar
once again touches the heart
of a girl named velintina rameh .
the shine that mr . color bring
was shown by the melodious melody of the string .
it made the cloudy weather
a scene of no fear and
feels so secure and safe .
mr . color always brings me to a fairytale land .
of wonders and imaginations .
i even learn how to cook in it .
it seem to be like a dream .
a dream which live in the reality .
something that i could not
denied its truth .
that leads me in a dream
that i don't want to be waken .
mr .color convey the real meaning of a friend .
someone who can be trusted
who you could count on
who keeps you comfy
but most of all
mr . color never protest
of having a very annoying
friend like me .
Thank you mr . color

:)

- roger and out -

Naaaa ! ada orang mungkir janji .
waaa ! :( me diam jak .
i have no right to speak .
bila di tanyak .
nya tanyak kta balit . heh .
kura kura dalam perahu .
pura pura tidak tahu .
habis madu sepah di buang .
ada baru yang lama ditinggal .
naaa ! coma jak ku membebel ctok . haha
semalam itu cuma satu mimpi yang nyata ,
yang tidak akan pernah lepas dari bayang bayang kelam .
ianya akan berulang setiap kali kesunyian menimpa .
namun hanya seorang merasakan kesakitan nya .

Hey ! bukan saya yang mahu bha .
kamu yang suroh .
saya cuma menurut perintah .
kalau kamu mok batal kan .
batal kan jak .
x perlu bha mok jaga hati saya .
lambat laun saya akan tahu juga bha nanti .
saya ada mata .
ada telinga .
saya tidak bodoh .
tapi itu la pasal .
saya nie idiot bha . adoo .
macam tu jak la dia .
kita biar kan semua berlalu pergi
tulis dalam sekeping kertas .
ceritakan segala nya .
baca balik dan jangan titis kan air mata .
kemudian bakar kan nya dalam api yang marak membara .
biar la ia menjadi debu yang di bawa angin lalu .
argh ! aku tidak mahu lagi .
tidak tahan lagi walaupun masih megah berdiri .
semakin hari kian terasa perih nya .
semakin hari kian terpadam harapan ku .
haha bukan kah itu lagi bagus untuk ku ?
biar aku dapat memula kan semua nya kembali .
biar aku terbang bebas tanpa mengingati semua ini .
biar aku tetap mencari erti cinta sebenar dalam hidup .
Hah ! apa yang aku fikir kan ini ?
semua nya hanya kata kata ku belaka .
kenyataan nya tetap sama .
aku tidak dapat melaku kan nya .
aku cuma dapat berfikiran positif .
tetapi jujur aku katakan
semakin hari
semakin hilang rasa itu .
entah kemana pergi nya .
agak nya sudah lelah menanti sesuatu yang tidak pasti .
tetapi mengapa aku tetap bertahan ?
tetap bersedia tidak kira masa ?
entah la hati ,
aku sendiri tidak mengerti .
alahai ,
jangan la di ungkit kisah lalu .
kenang kan lah ia sebagai
memori indah
yang tidak mampu di padam walau apa pun yang terjadi .
-coretan hati yang gelisah-

:)

Bloggie , here we go again :)

hahaha i know whats bothering mr.color now .
its the same thing that happen last two month .
poor mister color .
keep your faith mister color .
everything will be alright ! :)

-end of mister color-

we'd made an agreement again !

when every time we face with problems .
at the end of the day or morning ,
surely we will made an agreement .
today at 2 something in the morning we'd agree to

*if you single me single .
*stop me if im in a relationship .
*never interrupt others conversation .

OK SET ! !

there are 6 deals here .
~no returns .
~stay as close friend no matter what happen .
~never say please don't leave me .
and and and plus those 3 new deals . :)

BLOGGIE JJ IS BACK AT MIRI :)

weee ~ julius jemat is back from qatar .
he'll be here maybe for 1 month only .
they are having summer vacation now .
best kan ? hahaha jeles me .
yea ! i text jj just now .
jj we miss you so much J ! :)
hahahaha
gab yang pecah rahsia .
kan jj plan to do surprise .
hahaha tapi me memang dah tauk .
saya bermimpi semalam . hahaha
chalie kan ?

if you had a bad dream .
close your eyes and just relax .
call a friend and freak out !
hahaha
thats what i do :)

but don't get too worried bout it .
sometimes , dream were meant to be just dream .
it will not be real in reality .
unless you keep on thinking of it .
it could be real later . waaa
scary ! hahaha

bloggie ~
gtg jap .
-velen-
xoxo

NOT A GOOD BEGINNING :(

marah me . geram me . sakit hati me .
semua serba tak kena .
everytime when my eyes twitches mesti something bad happens .
waaa ! balik balik . ambik laptop .
latop set ! oke jak .
on computer , here we go again .
screen monitor rosak .
maka baru jak ambik yesterday bha .
i prefer using my computer than my lappy u noe .
dun wori lappy i still love u .
tapi if pakai laptop susah sangat bha .
semua conection brunei . haiyoo .
daddy , change new one . hahaha
mamy say hantar the monitor esok .
bye bye monitor :(
eyhh ! mr.color is in trouble ooww .
not sure what . hmm
i wonder what happen .
mr.color say that he will tell me later .
but now still no answer .
is it really that bad ? or settle already ?
have no idea . hmm
just wait la . hahhaa
can't force people to tell if they don't want to . rite ?
bloggie , today got new teacher come into our class .
miss cleopatra :)
nice name rite ?
i like her eyes .
very BIG :)))
haiyaa bloggie ,
i cried again today . waa
once again , people keep on asking me bout the past .
waaa i forgive you brenda .
if you know about it .
you shouldn't ask me next time ok ?
it hurts alot . :(
but nevermind la , i forgve you already .
heeeeeee :)

nite nite bloggie .
gtg nw :)
-velen-
xoxo

I MISS YOU :(

why do you have to be broken ?
why do i refuse to buy new one ?
why do i like to keep you so much ?
why do i even care ?
useless question . hahah :D

Nice ?

i took this last month with pae .
hee ~ at the beach .
waaahhh !
that was the best day ever :)
taking picture here and there .
tidak kisah kan orang di sekeliling .
cammie , i love you .
yea ! can't wait for pmr to over .
my new camera will arrive soon :)
yahhooo !

My man ! :p
hahha walaupun x wujud .
tapi marshall junior memang wujud :))
i'll cari him one day .
one day for sure .
hahhaa
:)

MR.COLOR

Thank You For The Colors That You Brings :)

mr.color , thank you for everything that you had given me .
your care and attentions
your smiles and laughter
your silliness and annoying *** sound
your patient on my attitude
your ears to listen
and you for being there always .
you know what !
you're not that bad after all ,
not like the one that you told me before .
you're not even close to MEAN .
you're kind .
full of softness in your hearts .
you like to rush alot .
thats for sure . haha
i can't describe you much .
there's a lot things to say about you .
it would takes me months to tell you the great things you've done .
i never regret of shading too much tears for you .
hahaha crazy rite ?
i mean like , at the end of the day i know that it would be ok .
i don't mind it if you wanted to scream or shout at me
i don't mind it if you played too much tricks on me .
i know you might call me idiot now .
wth ?! thats why this blog called Life Of An Idiot !
hahaha .
seriously i don't mind .
i don't know la why .
it just that i don't like to fight with you .
really don't like to .
hmm
im writing this not to give you pressure mr.color.
just that i felt relief writing it down .
like wow man !
i knew you for only one day
but it felt like i knew you the rest of my life already .
i don't know why i trust you so much ?
i don't get it . haha
not that i don't want to .
just that i never trust anyone that fast.
hey ,
times passes so fast .
still , you would always be there for me .
yea , like what we promise to .
to be close no matter what others says .
to stay like this .
haha
silly agreement !
but i agree !
thank you mr.color ,
for not changing a bit
even though we fall apart .
and still shine in my life until now .
thank you mr.color ,
for your care.
i can feel your brotherly - hood
hahaha
mr.color ,
do you know that i always wanted a brother ?
i guess i found mine .
mr.color .
my friend
my brother :)

take care mr.color .
i'll always love you .

-rodger and out-

Dedicated to Nur Izzah

Dear Nur Izzah ,

How are you shulue ?
shulue , i really miss you .
you had always be there to support me all this while .
suddenly , i don't know why .
i felt like crying .
i miss you izzah .
everytime when i read your blog .
i would laugh at the same time crying .
i miss all those moment with you .
remember how we girls always shouted at the guys .
because of football ? hahaha
if you start to speak out they would always be speechless .
all of them are getting naughtier now .
i miss your shinny eyes !
i miss that . i miss talking to you most .
it had been like almost a year .
wow ! how fast can times pass rite ?
i don't know how to contact you shulue . :(
i can't facebooking , nor emailing people .
not even to chat . i don't even have you phone number anymore .
i'm not sure whether you still use your number .
or still using phone . waa
blogging is at least that i can do now .
i'm not sure if you are reading this .
i'm not sure if you even care about this .
just that i can't keep it inside of me anymore .
i really misses you . :/
really . really .
waaa and now , tears arefalling .
there's no word for me to describe how much i misses you .
i wanted to say more than i miss you .
but i don't know how to tell you .
i love you is just not enough for someone like you .
nur izzah , you know that we , here in miri would always remember you .
and love you as always . :)
did i ever tell you that our classroom is
blue and green in color ?
its for you and tehah .
two of our girls that had moved .
one day , i hope that we all could see each other again .
see , shulue ,
i'm talking like there's no yesterday !
shulue , i can't stop my stupid idiotic attitude .
i really try to stop think of what's happening
and to stop hoping too much .
but then , its hard for me .
ouhh ! how i hate changes shulue .
dearest nur izzah ,
haven't heard of any news about you these few months .
i hope to see something poping out somewhere . haha
hope that you are in good condition .
be nice oke ? but don't forget to be naughty too !
hee take care shulue .
good luck for the coming trials too .
hugs and kisses .
xoxo .

from ,
-velen-
xoxo

I'll Be There To Hold You In Times Of Troubles :)

# A friend is someone to be alone with ,
and have nothing to do
and not to be able to think of anything to say
and be comfortable in silence .

# A friend give hopes when life is low
a friend is a place when you have no where to go
a friend is honest and true
mostly , they are very precious .

Bloggie ,
why do i keep on saying about friendship ?
bloggie , i love them .
my friends .
you too are my friend . haha
if you could talk ,
i'm sure you'll be mumbling all over me .
velen bla bla bla .
haha
but i'll take it !
a good listener that understand you
is a good friend !
right ?

today everything seem to be uncontrolled .

everyone was in a gloomy mood .

especially me , i don’t know what really happen today .

just that , something feels so silly and wrong .

wrong , yea . something wrong .

what ? i have no idea .

man ! stop reminding me bha !

today , kak sya suddenly come toward me

and whisper to my ear and said

” velen , nang idiot ! “

ouch ! waaa i know right ?!

i am an idiot . but i have to .

bukan i x mok , tapi i can’t do it .

im not ganna be happy toward others sadness .

that is just so not me .

its not that i’m playing angel here .

just that i can’t hurt the one that i love . :(

please understand me you guys .

i need to go on with this .

its the only way that can make me happy .

walaupun kejap , with a silent mode ,

i’ll be thankful enough just to see them smile again .

thats all that i ever wanted . :)


FUNNY THING !

efan got something weird on top of his forehead .
people can't stop asking
and staring at it .
haha
its his third eyes !
wakakaka
funny funny !

Hp ayoi ilank !
waaa sedeh .
xda orang teman me if me sedeh later .
xda orang yang call me stupid when i say i can't .
eyhh , at school ada juak later . haha
ayoi ! tauk x sapa teman velen tewk ?
gerek ayoi !
ckyn teman velen .
haha
sweet la nya yoi .
biak kecik .
haha :D

GABBY LINGGIE !
haha
gabriel lidungan .
move on oke ?
i know how you feel .
let it be .
friends are better .
i can prove it to you .
100 % ! haha

-velen-
xoxo

KISSING THE FOREHEAD ?

* I really love you .
* I really care for you .
* You are the only one .
*Respectful kind of love .
* Wants to hold you forever .
*To comfort your partner .
*taking care of a responsibility like a friend or a family member .

i got this all from asking people and internet search .
haha what do you guys think ? agree ? .
heee well, i think i would agree with it .
it shows how much you care for each other .
plus plus , its for everyone .
like HUGS ! weee ~

How great it is to be expose to this scenery .
you would feel all better like no worries inside of you .
do you ever think of going out there and just let it go ?
I ! yea . i know i think like that .
its not because i want to escape everything .
just that it would be cool to chill sometimes .
away from everything .
but then , always remember to go back to reality .
face it with a strong heart :)

DAMN !

hahaha maluuuu ~~
Bloggie , you knw wat .
my muka . muka saya .
terpacak at dewan harmoni punya poster .
pelajar bintang bulanan bulan april dan mei .
aneyyh ! perlu kha ?
ouhh cikkkgu , mana dapat saya punya gamba ar ?
waaa malu nya . haha
sott my adek keep on telling me bout that .
tapi me baru sedar . haha
i baru tauk today . TODAY ! haha
punya la lambat effect . haha

Bloggie .
i told Gab the truth ody .
x sampai hati me sebenar nya . ksian bha tengok him .
adooo . waaa tapi i think he oke now .
my bro yang akan bagi him advise .
MAN TO MAN TALK ! HAHAHAHAHA !
hopefully he could cheer gab .
tapi mistake nya , dari tadi keep on pending .
travelling lagi agak nya . haha
mala jak . adoo .

i cannoy sleep la . adoo
wat to do nw ah ?
mok text pple ? aneyh .
kdit ciput gk . haha
4 smthg gk . hahaha
uhaa ! KAK SYA . kmk jmpa jantong hati kak sya tewk .
hahaa sottt . kdk pa jak nya SHULUE . apa kha ? haha
shulue ? myyyy i miss my shulue .
NUR IZZAH :) imissyou shulue . :/
izzah rawr ! wanna hug u . almost setengah tahun x jmpa u .
hmm japp . no la . setahun oredy . waaa almost la .
bulan 9 nanti setahun la dat one . waaa
lama nya itu . cepat masa berlalu .

sampai di sini dahulu .
- rodger and out -
Velintina Rameh :)

MMYYYYYYYYY !

i miss them so much !

sis ! kak ! bro ! systah ! waaa :(

mok hang out gik .
together lagik .
lupa kan everything .
start a new chapter .
xmok like this anymore .
keep on missing you guys but don't know if you all miss me .
waaa . i can't stop this feelings !
i wanna go out again with you all .
trial is coming soon .
i really need to go out .
teman me . teman me . teman me .
we go bowling . hit the pin and let everything out !
away for us .
starting from now .
should i call you guys ?
should i ? is it a mistake ?
or what i should do from the start ?
OOOOOOHHHHHH MYYYYYYYY :(
IM CONFUSE .

-OUT-

!!

WHAT DO YOU WANT BHA HEART ?

IM TELLING YOU ! IM SERIOUS THIS TIME .
I REALLY NEED TO SCREAM !
IF YOU ASK ME WHY ?
MY ANSWER IS I DON'T KNOW .
SOMETHING FEELS SO WEIRD .
RIGHT INSIDE OF ME .
RIGHT NOW , FELT SO HURT AND DUMP .
WHY ? I DON'T KNOW . DAMN !
I WISH SCHOOL STARTS NOW .
SURELY I GET A FREE HUGS FROM MY BUDDIES . :D

MUMMY , DADDY , IM SORRY FOR MAKING YOU GUYS SO WORRIED .
THIS TIME IM SERIOUS .
NO MORE CALLING AND TEXTING FOR FUN .
ONLY FOR SERIOUS CASES .
IF ITS A HEART PROBLEM .
DO WE CONSIDER IT AS SERIOUS CASES ?
huh ! wth ? LET IT BE .
I CAN'T THINK RIGHT NOW .


BLOGGIE , ME DENGAR LAGU I GOTTA FIND YOU .
WAAA :( TETIBA I INGAT AT CUEL , ACIN , AND MY CZN WAYNE .
BANYAK MEMORY GILA GILA WITH THEM .
I PALING INGAT WITH WAYNE .
WHEN WE BOTH LARI DARI RUMAH AND MAKE EVERYONE RISAU .
WOW ! BERFIKIRAN SEMPIT SEKALI . HAHA
NOW , BOTH DAH INSAF .
WAYNE . HEPI HEPI WITH MOLLY NOW .
YERR FOR 2 YEARS ODY . THANKS TO ME . WKAKAKA
MINE ? fuck ! HAHAHAHA I DON'T KNOW .
EVERYTHING SEEM SO FUNNY .
I READ OUT MY DIARY VERY LOUD JSTNW .
AND I CANT STOP LAUGHING .
DARN IT ! HAHAHA
NEVER WONDER HOW I COULD BE SO IDIOT .
FAREL WAS ALMOST KILLED BECAUSE OF ME .
BUT SERIOUSLY , YOU CAN'T FORCE LOVE .
WOW ! AFTER A YEAR . THEN HE FINALLY LET ME GO .
THE LAST TEXT THAT HE GAVE ME WAS ON MY BIRTHDAY .
WOW , NOW I KNOW HOW HE FEELS .
ADOO ! THAT HIPPO MEMANG MOK KENA LEMPANG ME LA .
DAH PEOPLE CAKAP JANGAN GANGGU .
XKAN X PAHAM LAGI . HUH !
ME PERGI TOILET PERLU EKOT KHA ?
SOTTT ! YOU BUAT SALAH DOLOK . DON'T BLAME ME .
IF YOURS NOW IS IN PROBLEM .
DON'T LOOK FOR ME . IM NOT GANNA HELP YOU .
:pppppp HUUUUUUHHHHHHHHHHHH !

lEPAS LEPAS . LEPAS SEMUA DALAM HATI . AHAHA
DAMN ! SAKIT HATI . DAH LA 3 KALI I SAY SHIT TODAY .
EEEE , I COUNT IT LA . HAHA INGAT LAGI ME .
TOMORROW SCHOOL LAGI .
YES ! ASAL KAN ME DAPAT LEPAS DARI SEMUA YANG TERJADI KEJAP .
PENING PENING . ADOO ADOO .
JANGAN TAMBAH LAGI .
APALAGI THAT TEACHER .
ME PAKAI BAHASA f CAKAP WITH YOU BARU TAUK . HAHA
SAKIT HATI OLEH NYA . MALA JAK .
VELINTINA . VELINTINA .VELINTINA .
IF X ME . AIN . AIN . AIN .
PIKIR WE ALL KULI KHA ? HAHAHA SOHAI OW !
ESSHH ! PA DI PADAH KU TOK . SOTT .
X BERKAT ILMU KLK . SORRIIII CIKGU .
WAAAA MAAF DEY BUUKK . HAHAHA

DUHH ! DADY MARAH COZ I GO BAIKI THE iPHONE .
SALAH KA ? HAHAHA
HE SUROH ME BELI BARU .
PA GUNA . I LOVE THAT PHONE MORE BHA DY .
XMOK HP BARU . WAAAA
NEXT WEEK BARU DAPAT SIAP ! yeas !
BABY , COME BACK TO ME . HAHA
THIS TIME . BOH YOU ALL BERANI KACAU IT .
HAHAHA JANGAN ENGKAU BERANI . HAHA
APALAGI PECAH KAN NYA UNTUK KALI YANG KEDUA .
WAAAA JANGAN BERANI .

EYYYYYYYY ! BULAN SEMBILAN GOT DINNER EYH .
FOR PREFECTS . YES !
DAH SERVEY BAJU TEWK .
BUT THEN , MAMY IS HAVING ANOTHER PLAN .
NOOOOOOOO ! SHE BOUGHT FOR ME A DRESS OREDY .
RED COLOR . DARING AND SEXY SHE SAY .
TUUUIIIIII ! HAHAHA MOK TETAQ ME .
WE ALL LAUGH .
ME PAKAI HEELS VALENTINO . YEAH !
YANG TINGGI ITO . I BOUGHT IT LAST FEB .
COST ME HALF OF MY POCKET MONEY .
BELI JAK DAT HEELS 200 JAK TINGGAL . NEYY .
BOROS . HAHA PA BOLE BUAT . DAH YA KCK .
KANNN ? PEREMPUAN ! ANDA PAHAM KAN MAKSUD SAYA .
SAYA TERLALU BOROS ?
YES ! I AM . KENAPA ?
SHOULD I CHANGE IT ?
WELL IM TRYING .
TAPI MANDA AND ALICE JADI SAKSI .
ITS HARD FOR ME TO DO SO .
WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
HELP ME ! I DON'T WANT TO BE A SPOILED BRATS !

yea ~ today semua pon pon datang :)
manda teman me jstnw . hahaha
java and jb x jumpa bha . waaa
jb : Im everywhere :p ngegeh !
manda , tanx for today . hahaha
me , alice and manda go paxen jstnw . haha
got dance competition eyy .
best . heee mata melirik lirik panjang . haha
manda la punya keja . haha
MANDA ! baju puteh .. puteh .. heeee
sott kan . haha ada gik like dat .
today i go big apple there . weeee
beli donuts for asin , acey , and ain . hee
i promise them bha . :D
bloggie !
akai ! pedis amai . waaa
diri ku cuba untuk tidak memikir kan nya .
tapi , tapi . eee !
my mata mala jak ternampak bha .
me xmok , xmok oke ! damn !
c'mon la ! angkat ! rise up . move on .
IDIOT ! dasar otak budak kecil . waa
susah ati bha . HAHAHAHA!
me mok ketawa jak . KETAWA !
its the only thing that i can do . waa
i x . later i cry . waaa
dady ! i wanna move this year . really want to !
i don't care if its FAR AWAY ! :(
i just wanna let things move slowly now .
just because i seem ok .
doesnt mean i really am .
hey ! mem ! let start everything all over :D
thanks mem ! for helping me .
bro ! seriously , hw can i be so blind ?
you were always there beside me .
thru mu ups and down .
but then , me mcm buat you x wujud .
how cruel rite ?
so not fair for you , let me make it up to u then .
bila you balik later .
i promise you ,
you will see a new person out of me .
VELINTINA RAMEH :D

HYE you !
thank you . haha
thank you for :
always being there by my side .
to be trust when i have a problem .
to find me in times of troubles .
to find me no matter what happen .
to keep me save in your arm .
to cuddle me when i needed u most .
to help me go through my hard time .
to keep me smile .
to bring laughter in my life .
to always tell me the truth .
and to everything that you had done for me .
thank you . i really appreciate it .
dearest friends . thank you all .
remember my book blog ?
i wanted to rewrite it here . heee
when i have time , i'll do it .
but i can't promise .
haahaha
bloggie , im matured enough now .
i still can stand up straight .
with confident and all .
im moving on . hee :D
seriously moving . out from all of these .
im moving next year . waaa :(

BABBBYY ! SYG KU ! BLOGGIE !

imissyousodamnmuch !
muchy muchy much ! haha
bloggie banyak dah terjadi . waaa
how to start oso i dunnoe wat to tell .
first :
im glad everything is back to normal . wee ~
plus plus , i miss all of my frens . tadi apuu , tetiba me rasa mok pelok all of them , waa
if at skol kan bloggie .
kak sya slalu pelok me . moses slalu buat lawak bodo .
aen pulak bagi advise sot sot . haha
vann nyanyi with me . haha :: bujang nyak pangan aku , badu nuan ngiruh diri empu .
wakakaka kuat kuat gik ya . xtauk malu betol .
second :
my project semua dah abis . no more drama n choir until pmr is over .
so not fair ! i want more . hahaha
but this coming sept got rally . yeaa !
Fr.Stan yaw !!!! i can't wait :)
wewiitt : i got a new bro . hahaha bangkak itu budak .
hahhaa always fight tapi 2 3 hari ok balik . weee knl him ?
tidak apa . biar saya sorang jak tauk . mr.ben 1o yg sama church with me bha .
TOINK ! hahaha paham paham la . wakaka
third :
iPhone pecah screen . apoo !
baru two days i hold it u knw .
akai ! dah pecah .
dtg dtg jak me dri skol tengok the screen pecah .
my hati mok pecah juga . wwaaaa
i cry sampai mata bengkak .
geram me . dady bagi bha . waaa
then after mamy told dady .
dady terus call me . he suroh me tenang pez .
he say that next week he balik .
he buy new one . akai ! dady , jangan memboros .
i appreciate that phone sangat2 .
if beli new one kan lbh mahal .
bgs tukar d screen jak .
me and mamy pegi pasar jstnw tanyak they all if can repair or not .
YES ! PUJI TUHAN ! dapat dibaiki . weee
next week baru siap . yes yes yes :)