is it over ?

YEAH ! its over .
finally im free .
FREEDOM ! :(
but why do i feel im faking it ?
hey ! i smile and laugh .
but why do my tears fall ?
hate that feeling .
rite ?
people ! you have the right to choose .
to speak out .
to tell others how u feel .
and now im telling you how i feel .
i FEEL WORST !
why do we give hope and believe in it when we know its over ?
why do we keep on questioning ourselve with some stupid question when we know its no use ?
why do i keep on repeating the same old foolish thing again and again ?
why do people understand me so much ?
why can't i have what i wanted ?
why i keep thinking of others other than myself ?
why do i let myself be backstab by others ?
why do i have to put myself last in my life ?
why why why ? STUPID !
why am i talking to someone that would not reply my saying ?
why i can't just let it out in front of others ?
so that they know how hard it is for me to move on !
why do simple things have to be so complicated ?!
tell me why !
pon pon . friends . family . anyone .
don't let me fall for i know you all care . :/