Believe that in this topsy turvy world in which we have to live, so bereft of peace and so far from God, God is present; loving, giving himself, pouring his peace into souls of good will.

Faith lays hold of the good things to come that are the object of its hope, as if they were already present.

God gives us no more than we can bear; and he gives patience first.

its okayy :)

saya paham . anda tidak akan pernah membuat hal yang sedemikian bersama atau kepada saya .
anda cuma mengharapkan saya yang berbuat demikian . tetapi mengapa ? ada kala nya terasa juga seperti di pergunakan oleh anda ? kenapa anda tidak pergi sahaja dari ingatan ini ? suka sangat anda mengacau kan ? perlu kah anda begitu . saya tengah menahan diri ini . menahan dari tanggisan . dari kegembiraan . dari segala nya . sememang nya itu bodoh . tetapi saya harus berbuat demikian . jika bukan sekarang . bila lagi ? bila lagi ? bila lagi ? lebih baik henti kan segala nya sekarang juga sebelum semua nya terlambat . dan saya hanyut di bawa perasaan sendiri .


eeewwwwwwwwwwwuuuuuuuu ! pa di padah ku tokk ? hahahaha

ilovethewayyoulie :))

OHHH NOOOOOOOOOOO !

hari yang indah . waaaa !
bangun awal2 pagi dengan senyyuman yang lebar .
mamy oso pelik tengok me . hahaha
after semua selesai . ambik kasut mok tunggu bus .

okayyy . kasut pengawas hitam ku di capai .
aduhh ! kasut sebelah kanan terpelanting ke tepi pagar .
pelikk . bukan i put tepi ka ?
okayyy . kasut kiri dah masok kaki .
kasut kanan pula . buka tali kasut .
masok kaki .
eeeeyy ! pal got something tolak my legg ???
APA BENDA TOK ?!
TIKAM KASUT !
TOINK TOINK ! FROGGY IN MY SHOES !
Mamy katak myyy .
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
mamy and everyone can't stop laughing . :'(

OKAYYY ! today lagi . datang skol . aduhh !
tertidur dlm bus . akai !
good thing terbangun on time . hahaa
at school . awal pagi kena tumbuk azrie . hahaha
then diam him . hey ex kekasih ku . sakit tau :P
hahahahahha ! padan muka . diam terus .
then tetiba . juhh ! kita g rpr gik mok ? hahaha
apa kha ?! pa mimpi kwu ?
xda suka2 ngaco kwu .
OKAYYY ? hahahhaa

Hisyam kena ikat rambut mcm perempuan . hahaha
kan he sit sebelah me . i can't stop laughing .
and he can't stop making me laughing . hahaha
then cikgu conie golong2 kan his hair .
then he buat2 mcm pondan . he say .
sudah la tuuu , i maluu niee . ~ eerrr ! hahahaha
sakit perut ku ktawa ..

time class tambahan . me and gabriel harry gaduh .
i xmok call him love 1 today . merajuk with him .
he curang with syedahh . hahaha
ngengg ! then he tried to talk to me . but then i xmok layan him .
then i laugh . pastu tuu mcm biasa balik laaa .
i keep on calling him LOVE . haha kacau him jakk .

balik rumah ! yeeaaa . finally . hahaha
sampai depan rumah . buka pagar .
mamy mana itu kunci ?
kejap kejapp aaa :)
AAAAAAAA ? mana kunci bah ?
apuu indai ? nama nyak ?
neyy . terkena kunci luar rumah sendiri .
hahahahahahaha ! indai indai :D
1 jam tunggu luar . haha
pintu xpat di pecah kan . i mean the kunci kunci pintu la .
akher nya dari pintu belakang kunci selamat di jolok :)
hahahahahahahah !

bangun dengan semangat sekali . katak pula dalam kasut . tertidur dalam bus . love love pula ngan gab . LUPAKK ! naggis coz abie bagi me kucing . :'( takut bha ! . terkunci dari luar rumah sendiri .
pa mokk jadi ? :p

it rained on the petals . it rained on me .
how i love the breeze blowing my hair .
felt like standing in front of a titanic :)
i wonder how it feels when you throw yourself from there ?
JUST THROW IT AWAY LA !

I FORGIVE YOU :)

hari ini 27.09.10 . !

babunberkata begini kepada ku dan alien . start ari tok sampey ke 3 tahun kemudian . kmk nunggu taq alien ! :)) HAHAHHAHAHA ! ku xpat tahan . ktawa jakk keja ku . ahahhaa

awal pagi . ku bangun lalu ketawa seperti orang gila . hahaha kenapa ? tidak faham la .

okayy 26.09.10 !

hari ini memang hari persahabatan bagi ku .
aku telah berjaya menunaikan janji terhadap rakan rakan ku
serta melepas kan beban dalam hati ini . wahh !
sememang nya lega rasa nya . bagai kan semua yang di pikul selama ini hilang begitu saja . hanya orang yang memahami akan mengetahui perih dan sakit yang ku tanggung .

pada hari ini . aku bangun agak akhir !
kira-kira pukul lapan begitu alarm telefon telah berbunyi .
aku bangun dengan tidak ikhlas nya hari itu .
sehinggalah aku tersedar bahawa hari itu adalah hari AHAD !
ya , tuhan . ampun kan lah hamba mu ini detik hati ku .
aku bingkas bangun lalu mencapai tuala mandi .
setelah semuanya selesai . aku berangkat ke gereja seawal 9.50 pagi . setelah tiba di hadapan gereja . aku melangkah kan kaki dengan yakin sekali . seumur hidup ku , buat pertama kali nya lah aku akn membaca injil pada pagi itu . aku melangkah masuk ketaman yang menuju ke Father's house . disitu aku bertemu dengan Nigel dan dominic . manakala ahli yang lain sedang rancak bermesyuarat bersama Aunty Margerate :)

Mt brother . "BROTHER" hahahaha text me that he is on his way to the church . he was alone back then . for the first time i think . yerr ! mok menjeles kan me la him tuu . hahah semangat bangun awal . hahhaa . i saw him walking across the street there . but then i tried to hide . haha i end up laughing by myself behind danielle's back . then i go out to see him . at the same time he was texting me to pick him up out site ! :) neyy . haha chaliee sungguh ! after five or ten minutes like that alice and her mom datang . weee ! sungguh tidak adil . haha rushi straighten . alice oso . ini sungguh tidak adil ! haha tapi tidak apa lah . selepas PMR okayy ! :)

Okkayyy ! here lawak nya mula . after finish reading . i go back to 'our seat' behind . hahaha bising la we all 4 behind there . nang gila la . hahahha then suddenly this pink shirt lady was like . shhhh , father tengah bercakap di depan . adooo . malu nya . mana nak letak muka ? hahahaha for the first time me kena tegur you know ? hahahaha nang lawak la for me . i did nothing bha . me and my bro bisik2 kecil jak . alice nad brenda la ketawa besar . hahaha tapi memang la salah we all . x dengar cakap father . haha sempat i ask for god's forgiveness to all of us . hahaha

prayer time . waa :'( aer mata ini mengalir . hahaha first2 mok blakon la tewk . yerr buat2 pening palak . sampai brenda and alice tak sedar . then2 my bro sedar . waa . hahahaha tapi nang lega la my hati i cry . i was asking God . Lord , do forgive all of our sins . help us not to hate but to forgive like you . to be patience and to do your will . guide us in your light . for we are weak and we need you Lord jesus . protect my family and keep the harmonies in us always . in building a loving heart inside of us . which is ready to serve you and one another . do help me to be strong in living with the truth . help me to get over every ridiculous things that happening to me . and do forgive the ones that hate me Lord .
LORD ! iiiiiii .... i cry and laugh at the same time after that .

huh ! haha lega lega lega . sangat lega . emparak , empangup and sawai was clapping and dancing with me . hahaha to cheer me up and to serve the Lord too . gembira nya hati ku . lastly , semua orang balik . we all MYCS jak yang tinggal . you know what . it was raining heavily and aunty margeret decide to belanja us all makan KFC . hahahaha she 3 kali trip putar pasar hantar all of us . 21 of us . with her kereta waja . hahaha THANK YOU AUNTY MARGERET !the me , frankie , elaisha , nicholas , tracy , danielle , morris , breyg and marcell jalan kaki to parkson . elai's parent pick them all up from there while me and frankie balik pakai bus . frankie is my cousin btw . hahaha :)

at home . rahsia terbongkar . ouch ! tusukan yang tepat di dada . sakit nya di panah ! berkali kali telah berlaku . namun aku endah kan . kali ini aku sudah tidak tahan lagi . buang la ! buang la semua ! memang engkau tidak pernah hargai nya kan ? buang semua la ! setakat janji manis tidak menjamin persahabatan yang kukuh tanpa keikhlasan hati . ! ingat itu . tanpa keikhlasan hati . aku sudah tidak mahu menjaga hati yang lain jika akhirnya diri ini juga terluka . HARUSKAH ? SAKIT TAUK TAK ?!

hari itu berlalu begitu sahaja walaupun ketika malam . mata masih menitis kan air mata . aku tetap bertahan menaggung luka yang diri ku sendiri telah cipta . aku sendiri yang telah mengheret kan diri ku dalam permasalahan mereka .


selamat tidur ~~~

i cry in the church .
tears keep on flowing .
plus baru dengar bad news .
ooo mum . i love you .
ooo dad i love you too .
Oh Lord , do answer my prayer .
i'm asking for forgiveness in you Lord .
forgive for what we've don't before .
pedis bha bila dik nmu urg nyak enda hargai nma tai bagi dk .
atau just pura-pura ka kawan ngau dk !
naaa ! kluar iban ku . hahahaha
nyak jakk :P

life isn't easy . yea thats the word . when things when wrong suddenly then you realise that you are not that strong after all . all the pretends and smile you give away was such a big mistake . how you pretend to be so strong every time when people mess up your things or you life . how others just take advantage of you just because that you are willing to do anything for them . then one day , one big problem crash into your life . and the only person that stands there with you is none than others accept Jesus . where have your friends go ? have no idea . they want the best for you . want to give you time . but do they ever realize that you just want them to be with you . to give you hopes like how you care for them . to love you back like you love them . mostly , just to be there with you in time of your worst nightmare problems in life . but hey , not everyone will leave you . some are just erkk like that . but some , you just can count on them . for they surely be there for you . bloggie , it had been for 5 days . i cried all night long . just hoping for something out of this world happens . but nehe nehe :) not gonna happen . this particular person told me that this particular person loves me . and i was like . i love you too and thank you for always being there for me . i started to cry once again ! hahahahha delyna , daphnie and sherilyn tauk tauk jak how to make me laugh again . kak sya starts to hug me over and over again . last wednesday i didn't go to school oo . hahahha i got fever . kan me sempat online . i chat with miss.vann . hhaha akai ! she told the whole class . then suddenly in class during english she told me that she jumpa my boyfriend ? BOYFRIEND ? i don't even have one . hahahaha sott la her !
mmmmmmmmmmm bye . gtg . mamy datang :P

today 11.o9.2010 end of Rev fr. Stand and prof Bob Rice rally . :)
wow ! yesterday healing was WHOAHH ! amazing .
people keep on crying and calls for thy name .
screaming and laughing at the same time .
sounds insane ? well dohh !
healing is the session where you can feel God's presence real life .
He was there with us . at the time that Father Stan holds the altar with his silver garment .
people were starting to cry and weep with sorrows .
some were even fainted . HOW GREAT IS OUR GOD ?
nahh ! prove ! HE IS THE BEST . we lift his name on high . we glorified him . :)
he pour his blood to covers all of our sins . he pour his love upon us . and he gave us the change to choose our life style . good and bad . Big decision eyy . thats why we have to think , think and think again . hahahaha

Today everything went out perfectly . i think ? hahaha well , it was fun but then not-so because of the crazy people from ________ hahhahaha who cares ? at least they enjoy themselve . but then , they have to concern about others too . you come there to praise the Lord . show it in the right way . :)

we have some photo taking with both of our speaker :)
The REV FATHER AND THE PROF :) hahaha
fr.Stan says it sounded funny . hahaha i have to admit it . IT DOES ! hahaha
i mean the way the said it . and and and we love the way you groove FATHER :)

today , after rally .
me and malcolm aaron plan of going to parkson .
then , bamm ! hahaha the whole MYCS where going there too . haha
YEAA us ! it was funnnn ! GO GREEN ! hahahaha
firstly , we eat at the food court there . then jalan2 . then help the HLS with the drawing competition . we conquer the fishing game . hahahaha
i got 4 sweets ! hahahaha it look a bit childish . but we enjoyed it .
you know what ! we all kena rakam . hahahaha seperti biasa nya .
haha muka we all jak masok CD . haha don't forget to buy okayy ?
then the last thing to do is to watch STEP UP 3 ! malcolm watched it for 3 time . mann !
he really loves dancing . its his passion .

THEN OFF ~ bubye . hahaha semua balikk . yeaa . tmrw jumpa again . at church :)
im going to use the black t-shirt with the gold writting :) hahaha
nice ? YES !!! :)

wee :)
bloggie . roday i learn a very important lesson .
always tell the truth .
no matter how hard it can be .
but if you're in the right side .
just go for it .
i told mabel the truth ! TRUTH ! :)
and and im very , very , superb glad !
thank you Lord ! ALLELUIA !
i x kisah if people mok marah me .
tapi i think akan ada salah paham there .
tengok la nanti . hahaha why is telling the truth have to be so hard ?
damn ! hahahahha !
tadi i go parkson with mamy , dady and siblings .
hahah
mamy help me to pick up a necklase for me and mabel .
she say appreciate everyone yang appreciate you too .
don't think of losing others when you know they will always be with you :)
aww ~ hahaha
then we all makan . then lalalal hantar me to the father's house :)
ok ! firstly ambik holy water . then sit down . jot down all of my sin and pray .
time syukk2 prayer . tettt tett tett i don't want much ...... dush ! lagu through my window keluar . bising gik ya . full volume . lupa silent kan . hahaha i rush out from the cathederal . nigel was like laughing at me . waa :( hahaha
then me , belyn , alicia and nigel sat down together . hahaha chalie gk . semua comment sal my phone bunyi . hahaha then we all ckp pasal 'sin' hahaha akai ! berdosa amai kami !
this is the third time we all go for confession this year . then this thursday lagi . hahaha x sabar me . on thursday i'm goin to be on duty . and if me x demam lagi . i'll be the reader for saturday mass . yeaa mee ! hahaha bloggie , u x rasa pelik how me and nigel boleh jadi kawan ? well , it all started like this . me and him were in the same group . yeaa my hatered makin meningkay dat time . but during presentation and all he slalu sebut my name . and leoo oso . mcm defends us bha . something like dat la . then on saturday nite . he ketuk my pintu mlm2 at 10.30 . letih betol dat time . pas kena 'seksa' . hahahaha he and tommy mok bagi paper fionna sebenar nya . memandang kan me tdo teti pintu so i buka . i scolded him for waking me up . but instead he stay chill and say vel , later if i ketuk pintu kuat2 u mesti bangun ok . maybe they got bunyi kan siren . then i say la i tdo mati . then he say xpa . i'll wake u up . xmok me c u kena hukum later . all of u . wth !? pal u jadi baik tetiba . the at tandas paling pelik . we all kan mesti cuci tandas together . i kena kan him abis2 ooo . debbie and antonia tengok jak at first . but at the end we both end up by laughing at each other faces and talk as ussual . like frens . like he was never there to hurt me . i was like WHAT ?! hahaha then i say praise the Lord . hahaha :)
everything was back to normal now . after 5 months . now nigel is with vivi i think . hahaha idk . as long me x di sakiti lagi . hahahaha

MYCS LEADERSHIP CAMP :)

The best camp ever .
we started at 5.00 pm on friday .
venue is at Mater Dei Lutong .
weee time first datang kan berdebar semacam jak .
dah la all the leader leader yang dolok banyak bagi amaran .
jaga you all , later they bla bla bla .
akai ! semakin nebes la we all nie . haha
after semua dtg . sister shirley starts with the rules and regulation . eyy , brother jimmy . heee :)
bole tahan la the rule . heee then we all ada ice breaking .
itu dia ! i harap x sama group with this one person . sekali BOOM !
my name was after his name . neyy . lain yang di harap .
lain pula yang jadi . tapi me syukur la now . im being fren with dat person now . hahaha
eyyy . the next morning , we all bangun awal pagi .
go to the chapel to do some morning prayer . some meditation too :)
wow ! lega betol rasa nya . the activities started after breakfast .
some pelatih from PLKN datang and help us to 'think out of the box' as a leader with spontanious ideas and action . we all main lalang . something like that la . you just fall down and let your team past you around . hakai . bergetar my kaki dat time . 3 time we all do baru perfect . hee :)
then we all have to jaga our babies . this one the christ teen yang suroh . my babies is 3 pink plastic bag . baby 1 and 2 are boy and baby 3 is girl . plas , tic and plastic :)
hahahahaha ! got this one time we all kena lari to the padang there and pelok pelok our babies . alaaaa :) sweet kan ? haha for a plastic bag ? neeyyyy . hahaha then we all kena hukum push up . adoo ! sakit . on the road yang full of small stones . hakai ! pedis waii ! haha sabar jak . pas tu apa ouh ? oooo we lari 2 kali keliling padang there . sambil nyanyi lagu hari ini . :)
HARI INI KU RASA BAHAGIA BERGUMPUL BERSAMA SAUDARA SEIMAN :)
then beberapa org kena tarik keluar . anysia , elaisha , danielle , tracy , ian , adeline , me , emma , brian , jeniffer , julius , frankie . we all have to kawad . then the whole camp we all la yang paling terok kena 'dera' . hahaha time kawad kaki dat evering tetiba . sussshhhh ! my baju basah from the back . kena simbah aek . then orang depan pula satu baldi di tikam toward her . we all have to gigit bunga and all . lotion letak atas palak . banyak lagi la . then back to the plkn pple . we all kena hukum berguling across the road . pening palak ouu . mok muntah jak rasa . dah la got this one game . game I we all kena tipu . haha everu kotak we pijak ada bunyi tettt ! geram . duhal xpa if we all pijak luar . hahaha x guna pening me , faith and adeline pikir . hahaha paling best time mok balik . my team have to cuci tandas lelaki and perempuan . hahaha sebenar nya the toilet there the cleaner dah cuci . wkakakaka ! bertuah nya kami . we all sengaja cuci with air and a bit of soap bia mcm we all pula yang buat . ahha but then we all jujur la . hahaha dah la semua org cannot masok there . me and antonia akan jerit . NOOOOOOO ! OUTSIDE GOT BUSH GO THERE ! hahaha the nigel and debbie pula halang halang them mcm cicak on the siling . hahaha lawak la dat time . then we all jumpa sometjing unexpected at the boys toilet . hahahahahahahahaa a big laugh ! akai . ada la tu . hahahaha paling best about this camp is that it bring us more closer to God . doing everything with a prayer . meditation . comunication with God and all . spent time in the chapel . nang best la . :) now officially , we all are MYCS MEMBERS ! :)