OH bloggie !

its a FORBIDDEN LOVE ? HAHHAHA

gila . soalan pertama ketika menemui kenyataan itu adalah ::

Ada kah kita berdosa ?

hahahaha nang gila la . from grk to abg . now UNCLE :) hahaha

im related to the Nang's family . hahaha bangga ku youu :)

cos ku x sangka ada related ngan dak nya .

no wonder la first kenal alu dekat ! HAHAHA duhal related .

my akik duhal uncle dak nya . yerr ! hahaha

PERCAYA la . Tuhan itu maha adil . bnyk lagi yg kita blm ketahui ;)

sapa gk realted ngan aku tokk ?! haha juh . ekot jejak kasih jak kita . wuuu ~

this is me :)

velintina rameh . before going to the appreciation night dinner .

i curl my own hair . straightened it . do my own make up .

do my own dressing . all me xD HAHAHA

im showing it off . YEAH > so ? no use right ?

WTH ? like who cares :p

22nd dec 2010 !

a very sad day for all the mycs carolling team .

we all were waiting for syllester to come .

but he failed to showed up .

he had a n motorcycle accident . :(

*sob sob*

everyone was crying and started praying for him .

he broke his leg badly . bu he is okayy now .

sempat lagi he main main time they all bilem and tracy

jenguk him . happy him ada kaki besi -.-'

hahahaha ! silly syllester .

kami semua merindui anda APEKCAK ;)

NAILS OH NAILS :D

why do i love you so much ? ;)

When I look in the mirror, all that I can see is my FACE .

then i look at my nails . ergghh ! empty . white . zero . meaningless nails .

uhhh ! i need to change it . first it was red . second was black .

then it was purple . then it was black black purple and red red .

then i change it again to red red and black black black .

now its black and red on top only ;)

aww ~ okayy everything is complete now .

FACE not gonna change a thing !

thank you God for this face that you had given me :D

NAILS you're too gorgeous babe !

HAIR aww i love you . natural curl with paper bag :) old fahsion style of curling it temporary .

if you love you hair and don't want it to be ruin . do avoid using the usage of heat :D im serious girl !

is that all ? hmm im not sure . wait . wanna redo my left hand . goshh !

i can't do it perfectly :( so sad ! tattttttaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa bloggie .

P/S : again and again . im not surprise :'(

do i look different here ?

yes or no ? no one can answer me .

I woke up early today . wondering what should i do with my hair .

why is it so complicated for a girl to make up her mind ?

as a 15 year old girl some people said that my action are beyond my age .

im not really that bad . its true !

im just a unique person who loves to do lots of crazy thing .

if you don't explore the world now ?

or try something that is not you ?

when will you ?

someone told me this before :

Let go off the past and do not take a U-Turn
Live the moment of your choice
Rewind the past only to learn
and deafen the hurting noise!

to summaries it

MOVE AHEAD

GO BEYOND

:D

then , NEVER regret the things that you did :D

aww ~ smk lutong

Feel every moment you live,
For you do not know,
When the sun will stop rising,
Become who you were born to be,
For everyone is here for a reason,
Discover the meaning of life,
You will know when you’ve found it,
The warm heart, and sound of tiny toes,
Pitt-pattering on the floor

The sound of giggling and laughter,
Where there was none before.

I have DOMO ;) you have ? nooo . neyyyyy :p

xtauk knak me gila domo . aww ~

cute alu bnda tokk . kekadang kdk ganas juak upa nya .

tp selalu nya CUTE :) hahaha

dot dot dot . ya jakk ;)

Who among us has not felt the sadness of love?

Love comes unexpectedly and leaves unexpectedly

leaving us shattered, broken, full of pain

rejected and dejected and than we try find solace in words

by reading and writing sad love poems .

lalalalalalalalalalalalalala ~ what in the world am i writing about ?

yeahh its shit stuff . don't read it . you'll regret it !

I remember the first time you held me in your arms,
the first time you said “i love you.” the first time you kissed my forehead.
you were always so gentle and sweet. no matter how far we were you were always there for me through it all. i trusted you, you promised me the world and thats what you gave me. i couldnt have asked for anything better. so what happened to us? our perfect love was ended so quickly, so hurtfully..
everything came to an end . my heart stopped and shattered.
last thing you told me was “stay away from me you'll get hurt”
i couldnt understand why this is this happening . we were so madly in love.
nothing could seperate us .
my questions shall never be answered.

okeng . copy paste plus tambah sendiri :p

I don’t know how to say goodbye

So I’ll just except the pain

I will no longer cry tears of hope

For there’s no satisfaction to gain

So ill whisper a silent goodbye

While wiping the tears from my eyes

as all the late memories past gone by

i'll still see you in my mind

Tell me when the pain is over

I keep moving on but I’m not getting foreword

Sometimes I long to go back to your arms

To listen to the beat of your lying heart

Can’t you hear me crying out your name

Or don’t you give a damn about my pain

You will never understand what you’ve done to me

Its like describing the sting of a thousand bees

Your face keeps hunting me ,even in my dreams

You knew that my soft spot was you

Lying to me while I believed that it was true

Just know that I will remember you

Is there a better place

To be right now

Than to be home

Listening to the crickets’ sounds

Outside the windows

Than in the bed

Closing my eyes

Falling into a deep sleep

To forget about the days

Forget about the nights

Forget about you

Just like a rainbow after the rain . A good thing will always happen after you experience pain :)

things are getting much more complicated nowadays . im happy with what im living now . its a dream come true to have such wonderful peoples around you . but it turns out to be the worst night mare ever when it comes to dumping a persons heart . i never had such thing in mind till the day that i realize that i can't do this anymore . i cant pretend to say i love you to those that i don't really love and most of all i can't force myself in loving you just for the sake of not being single .

it all started with a blurry vision of a proposal which came true one day . i wasn't expecting anything from the joke that we make . to tell the truth i didn't mean to play your game and make you fall in love . as a normal human being who freaks people alot . i really do like you for who you really are . but for now . to tell the truth . that feeling ends there . dot dot dot ! i can't go on with it anymore . i miss the old you . who jokes around with me all day long .

why cant we be friend ? i prefer you as a friend . even tho the'now' you is way much better but i still can accept the fact that im saying yes to you for no reason . if you ask me million question of my feeling towards you i'll answer it directly by saying i do like you . but i'll be very silent when you ask me do i love you ? . its the end of that conversation for the day . i get all mess up with the pro and cons of our relationship . most of all when i start to look at myself and see that we don't have common anymore . between me and you there's a sallow line which makes us apart . this line cause me to realize that we're not meant to be .

you're to kind ! finding the perfect guy who really accept me as who i am is very difficult . no offence ! its true . but then i can't repay you back . i'm afraid that if one day i may not be the same person that you wish to be with before . people change and my heart change . the feeling towards you never change . but the truth that im telling you had change now and forever . i can't be with you anymore . that the only word that i can say . saying goodbye is always the hardest words . but why must forever ?

yeaa . i don't understand myself . i can't even control myself . i still want my old life back . tho' you can't live with my reasons . so do i . i know i'll regret the decision that i'll make . but i know that im doing the right thing for now . i can't move on with this fake face anymore .

if you're reading this . im sorry . but its the truth that i can't hide no more inside of me :(

yeah mann ! tokk la my geng tewk . hahahaha
janji we all anen , me , steph , keith , phel and anna temu .
tapi ujung ujung cuma me , keith , phel , anna , misel and misel's fren .
tapi awal la i say . GILA ! hahaha today was the best day xD hahaha
jumpa with all facebook addict tewk ! ahhaha
i bought one little small domo for myself today ! HAHAHA ;)
keith and misel oso ada xD yerr apa gk . ali la we all show off tewk . hahaha
nang caliee la . dah la we all keep on running around .
i jumpa alice too tewk xD hahahaha waaa rindu my pon pon .
dah la me tetiba kena serang gastrik this morning .
untill now masih sakit . what to do ? tahan jak la . hahaha
btw , tadi at parkson i jumpa manda and jb ;) yerr bha . hahaha dating x ajak org . HAHAHAHA
GOSH ! i love my gay hat ! hahaha it goes toink toink all the time . ahhaa
mas parade tewk . eee ! rimas gila . the hat mala jak mok tanggal dari palak . haha
longgar bha :( gara gara sapa ? entahh !
ayooo . misel bawa me to her bdy aprty tmrw .
tapi rasa nya i cant come la :( got carolling bha . party ya di taman awam .
plus me neyda transport g cnun . yeahh mann ! hahaha
me jumpa with pat juak tewk . hahahaha eyy banyak lagi la . ahhaha haiyoo .
biar tinggal lam otak tok jakk . ahhaha anna tinggal kan me tewk ngan they all danny jakk .
she pegi with her boyfie :D hahahahaha calieee bha :( x ajar org . ahhaha i dont mind to menyendat there :p ouhhh ya ! i hugged anen too ! aww ~ hahahaha lelah pusing2 cari anen tewk . last2 jumpa at the stall makanan . hahahaha aww ~ how i wish this parade doesnt end today :(

New friends ! :)

bloggie ! yesterday was the last day of the christmas bazaar . :)
the total profit that we all got is aroung 2000 ++ :) weee ~
i never see so much money in my entire life before . hahahaha
goshh ! but then that is not enough . we loan from the christ teen about RM2500 .
naaaaaaaaaaaaaa ! seeee have to bayar hutang pula -.-'

skip that topik . hahaha ALLELUIA ! at least we did our bestt .
hopefully the carolling house to house could help in covering all of it .
14000 to go bebeh ! gagagagaga SPAIN ! here we come :P

marek kan bloggie . i jumpa with anna lipang ! hahahaha
nang x sangka la . me , bero and phel sebok talking2 .
berjiwang2 la we all there then gila gila ber-TALKING TO THE MOON ! hahahaha
then bero eksen2 mok naggis . ahhaha then anna datang .
i jump atas with bero . she said " eeee ! ngga sama la muka torang duak . mati mati ku pke adek badek ! hahahaha " me and keith was like ... EEE ! adek badek la tokk . hahaha yeahh mann ! terer kan kami berlakon ! HAHAHAHAH " then she geram sendiri . hahahaha
after that drama . me . bero . phel and anna anddddd her friend went to parkson together .
YEAHH ! beli handphone baru . hahahaha
bero yang pilih for me . ahha up down all around . cari cari kedai handphone . ujung2 we all agree to buy menokia x2 like his phone -.-' hahaha sama kaler gk ya . RED ! :) hahahaha
mun da masa klk i show off kan the phone here bloggie :p

ohh yaaa ! EVERYDAY i jumpa with SHANNEN MICHELLE . hahahaha
she panggang2 babi . weeee ~ haha me kan jadi promoter . putar2 here and there ngga orang jakk . marek nawk . its the foirst time ber chit chat lam2 ngan nyaa . haha aww ~ pegi plkn nyaa . haha syukk gk ya . all the best anen ! ;)

CHRISTMAS PARADE TOKK KITA SEMUA JUMPA KAEE ? ;) awww ~

p/s : gk teman anna tokk . ahha merepakk nya . hahaha nang dasar otak budak tadika la org nok plh anna manas tokk . x pke alu org ya -.-' ahahaha kan anna ? :p

im starting to asking myself again -.-'
which one is it ?! come onn !
not again ! im not gonna fall for the second time .
no more ! please la .
cut the crap you stupid headeck freak !

The perfect measure-i just can't breath

today ! :)

ith 4th december 2010 . ---> my lil sis VANESSA AK MELING 5th birthday :)

at the same time too its the first day of the christmas baazar . :)

we'll be selling a lots f things there .

1. books

2. toys

3. posters

4. cards

5. stickers

6. bookmarks

7. pictures

8. kacang kuda

9. chicken wings

10 . stick foods

11 . watermelon & guava

12 . drinks ( cincau + sarsi)

13 . PORK ! :)

do come to our stall and help us to raise enough money for the WORLD YOUTH DAY :)

God bless you all .

weeeeeeee ! bloggie !

FINALLY ! im home today . hahaha as always la . LATE !

i followed danielle back home just now . Donald was too busy merajuk with all of us . just because we insult him too much . HAHAHAHAHA kesian him . waittt . noooo ! i don't kesian at HIM . HAHAHA everyone was like EEEEEWWWWWWWWWWWWW at everything that he does . hahaha actually we're just playing a prank on him . nothing much really . hahaha tomorrow he'll bring all of us to see movie ! PARKSON MODE ON ! after carolling practise la .

bloggie !

abie called me yesterday ;) hahahahha

it had been for 2 days that we didn't meet :'(

HAHAHAHA ! he'll be going to Kuching this coming Friday .

waaaaa ! bye bye bie . *waving

take care okayy bie ?

*jangan engkau menjeling jeling di sana :p

BLOGGIEEEEEEE !

i wish his mom a HAPPY BIRTHDAY !

duhh ! who cares right .

BUT I DO CARE :) aww ~ hahahaha

happy birthday aunty . > last sunday <

BLOGGIE ! (again) * i have got to stop with this shouting :p

My cousin just gave birth yesterday .

ITS a GIRL :) weee ~

Trasia lusi * wink wink . i love you new niece :*

BLOGGIE ! (again and again)

they all abie plan a bbq party before or after we take the pmr result .

hopefully its before la . otherwise , some og us will be crying :'(

i don't wanna be one of themm . ( the one who cries )

NO NO NO ! dear LORD , i pray that i'll have a good result . AMEN :D