BLOGGIE .

i wanna share with you all about today :)

today was fun + crazy + full of love :)

but before that . hmm

seperti selalu .

on9 fb first . and yes his profile first .

deactivate ? why ? hmm

i tod he remove me jsnw . waaa

hmm nevermind . he have his own reason .

fun started during sc . in the lab .

today i'm being serious with my study .

seriously serious . haha

untill . efan started to crack a joke .

he keep on saying in HD man !

then we learn about fossil fuel and all .

about natural gases . then about cow shit . as fuel .

then ayoi keep on saying bull bull .

then all of them all together .

BULLSHIT ! haha i can't stop laughing .

then tiba tiba . me mengelamun .

adoo . keep on staring at the red cair . number B10 .

B 10 ? ben 10 . haha diam jak me .

then i told aen . paham she what i trying to say .

bloggie ! urgent urgent ! BAYEN BOTAK !

noooo ! i almost cry you know .

dari last month ody i say nooo .

me and aen as his best friend there . both mok cry .

nicky apa gk keep on laughing .

but bayen chill jak . he say sabar jak sabar jak .

he mok potong my hair oso botak . haha

ayoi la pun pasal . haha

then tetiba me and daph imagine macam mana my face

if me bena bena botak . hmmm .

all together . EUWWW ! no way . haha

then during maths .

hisyam keep on singing .

dah me duduk beside him

ofcos me terekot ekot .

then he scolded me for singing the same song .

so me diam la . buhue :(

the he stop . so i sing . lalala

tetiba he ekot ekot me pulak .

neyhh . 2 x 5 = 10 ! haha

so we both keep on singing together

at the same time nganok2 each other punya voice .

then we talk abot paranormal activity .

adoo . all week i try to stop thinking of that .

but now . ! boom confirm cannot sleep .

haha :) adoo .

time bm ayoi tertido . haha

mushroom head masok kelas .

damn ! kantoi sudah . abis kenak lecture .

haha :D i just smile buat bodo .

dah la time pj . kan we all ada ujian intensif .

we all keep on talking about angin monsun and all .

my palak BLANK =.= seriously blank .

all yang i ingat is angin kuskus .

haha time form one efan kan duduk depan me .

he keep on saying angin kuskus .

i ingat that one only . then i jerit at him jusnw .

EFAN MUN AKU FAIL SAL ANGIN TOK .
I BLAME YOU COZ KU INGAT ANGIN KUSKUS JAK !

hahaha the the whole class start to laugh loudly .

apa gk ayoi and daph . ahha adoo .

today , everyone layan me dengan baek !

BAIK SUNGGUH ! wahh macam dulu dulu .

gosh . imy u guys . haha

hey bloggie ! you know what .

people are getting more respecting me now .

seriously . i was surprise too .

apa gik lepas confirmation .

all of those samseng and all dah berubah .

they even call me sis .

spon me and protect me . wahh ! best kan ?

every time bila jumpa me mesti they

all tanya bila ada rally and praise and worship .

woo ! i am so gald to hear that .

Praise the Lord that they had change :)

talking about rally .

st.john vianey concert is coming soon .

i'm not ready yet . wosshhh .

30 july . at 6 p.m i must be there .

at the same time i have motivation talk .

pecutan akhir pmr . 7 till 4 something .

adoo . i need my bath too . gosh !

i can't wait for tomorrow to come .

*missing you dear .

jadual waktu . ouh jadual waktu .

waaa :(

tidak suka ini .

monday : 7.00 a.m to 2.00 p.m

k.tmbhn : 3.30 p.m to 4.30 pm ( maths )

tuesday : 7.00 a.m to 1.15 p.m

k.tmbhn : 2.15 p.m to 3.15 p.m ( English )

wednesday : 6.40 a.m to 1.15 p.m ( assembly )

k.tmbhn : 3.30 p.m to 4.30 p.m ( KHB )

thursday : 7.00 a.m to 12.35 p.m

k.tambahan : 3.30 p.m to 4.3o p.m ( geo )

friday : 7.00 p.m to 11.55 a.m

YCS : 12.15 p.m to 1.30 p.m

-then off -

bloggie . uhue . felt release .

done all of my hw . my kerja kayu oso settle :)

wee ~ I"M FREE !

where the spirit of the Lord is there is FREEDOM ;)

I'M FREE ! :D

huisk . there is no answer to my questions .

i asked many people already .

still unknown . how i wish my dream would come true .

remember when i told you that

one day , a guy would grab my hand

and bring we fly along with him ?

wow . how i wish its true .

but we can't run away from our troubles .

the only reason for this weird behavior

is that i just can't let go what i;m feeling inside .

there's this one thing inside of me .

that i just can't let go .

jealousy ? envy ? all in one .

friends and family .

love ones . all in one roof .

i don't really have any problem with them .

it just ME ! me me me .

all me . i can't stop thinking .

i think i'm thinking too much .

i can't barely think right .

Ouh Lord . help me .

i want ME back .

what was i thinking ?

of faking all emotions ?

still end up with tear .

it is so not worth it .

just let it go velen .

that what people keep on telling me .

krk and bestari .

i know you all have your own problems .

i saw lots of tears have been falling down lately .

even the guys .

hey , we're all are still one okay ?

we're all in this together . :)

unite as brothers and sisters as always .

ouh . how i miss my childhood .

yaw ~ regret moment . haishh .

not good velen . hmm

bah bloggie . nite nite .

tomorrow i got school :) daaa

i can't stop worrying .

about what ?

i don't know .

dari semalam gk ya . adoo .

something bad is coming . hmm

but what ? at school maybe . hmm

at home okay jak .

Him ? hmm not so sure .

hw ? have i done it all ? haha

hw done ! kerja kayu . =.= boh tanya .

terasa jauh sudah . hmm

jauh apa ? bersama nya . haha

felt like buying a new diary .

don't worry bloggie .

i'll update you too .

just that this is too open .

nevermind then , hmm

bloggie . gtg .

i need to take my bath now .

then prepare all things for school .

off to bed then .

still waiting for his text . waaaa

lama sungguh . kali he tdo .

haha tidak mengapa . saya paham .

hari ujan bha today . mesti best tdo . haha

bye bloggie . :)

bloggie .

i bring marshall along during drama practise .

hahaha ternyata dirinya lebih femes dari aku . wakaka

holi mala jawk mejal suroh me bawa . adoo .

so i bawa today . ahha belom lagi me keluar kan from my bag dah awal awal she ambik .

jocelyn bawa marshall here and there .

jeles me . haha my anak that one . wakaka

they both look cute together . haha

wee bloggie . banyak people bagi me HUGS today .

best best ! haha finally jumpa balik with my YCS and MYCS members .

we all di surah stay kejap jstnow .

ambik trophy and certificate .

SMK LUTONG : 2nd place (drama) St.Valentine

script by : Velintina Rameh and Evelyn Wee

me jadi wakil jstnow .

take photo with fr.vincent :)

BLOGGIE :)

wee ~ having fun with emily chua yeasterday .

sepanjang hari hilang entah ke mana .

good thing mamy benar kan . haha

we go to tanjong , then to esplanade ,

then to 99 cafe . haha

sott keja we all .

taking lots lots of photo . weee ~

me jadi model kayu . wakaka

chalie ! :P terok my face . haha

p the camera nice . haha

sis . i love your cammie . haha

at 99 paling sott . weee

sis punya abg ambik gambar .

he do all those weird face . haha

i can't stop laughing .

then we all bully this one guy .

the waiter there . adoo .

mok pecah my perut . aha

p sian juak him bha . haha

we all order banyak banyak makanan .

x dapat abis semua . waaa

membazir ! haha

me and pae mabuk . hahaha

3 botol tiger di hadapan mata .

mabok SOYA ! haha

very fully loaded la that time .

gosh ! susah mowk angkat .

hahahatapi sempat juga we all buat lawak .

i reach home kira kira like 8.30 sumting .

i bath at 9 . haha tertido kejap .

then i when to bed at 9.30 after i text keith .

still no reply . hmm

mana he pegi ? don't know .

kita tunggu sahaja . humm

me terbangun at 2 a.m .

i online kejap .

ada juak he online .

tauk he safe jak cukup la .

then i offline balik .

apoo . my badan masih sakit .

hari sukan itu menyeksa kan .

haha then me tdo balik . heee :)

today got drama again . wee ~

tidak sabar saya . jadi nenek again .

at youth mass later . hmm

what will happen ouh ?

the sister text me suroh dtg .

got some prizes will be given ?

for last month drama .

ouhh ! tidak sabar saya .

we got 2nd place :)
bah bloggie . i go first .

i wanna get ready jap .

haha muka sunburn ini harus di tutupi .

wakakkaa :P

*missing you lots lots of lots miss ! [apa kha ]

mana kamu hilang bha keith ?

BUSAN !

adoo . xda keja me . waa :(

hw ? ada . ahha kelas tambahan puwn . hmm

mok polah x ? later la . haha

dah mowk ciap pun . hee

adoo . tok la my keja bloggie . japp

ambik gambar .

oke ? nt oke . haha

sunburn ! waaa :'(

BLOGGIE !

me baru sedar yang today is 26.06.2010 :)

wahh ! cepat nya masa berlalu . haha

genap la sebulan i kenal him :))

aww ~ pstt . Keith , i tak kira arr .

heee bloggie he x suroh me kira bha .

brapa hari ody we together . haha

if x kira juga me tauk bha if tengok the date .

it all started on 26.05.2010 :) wednesday .

then thing change to become more SWEETER on 27.05.2010 <3

yeaa . haha sott !

happy happy . bah bloggie . its 6 something in the morning already .

morning :) haha

*not missing you :P

Bahagia :)

haha sott !

baru jak he finish call me terus blogging .

don't baca my older post okay ? haha

I'm serious ! haha

ee . mowk ketawa me baca my older post bha . adoo .

eshh ! x suka x suka . aha

banyak gik his name . wakaka

love sick ! :p haha

adoo . cannot sleep anymore . haha

bah bloggie i go upload some pics first .

daaa :)

*not missing you :p

The Luckiest Day :)

bloggie . today was the best day of my LIFE ?

i guess so . HAHA

more to THE LUCKIEST DAY OF MY LIFE :)

bloggie . apoo . awal awal me and moses masok just now got spotcheck uu !

damn that musang berjangut ! awal2 cari pasal eyy .

naseb x kenak tangkap . haha

we all naik atas tangga bagi with people kat dalam .

hahaha sott kan ? sanggup we all janji hp selamat .

plus me bawa cammie just now . haha

the second spoctcheck pulak .

adeyh ! susah betol . me and vann baru jak balik dari parkson tetiba

got spotcheck lagi . deshh ! haha good thing ambrose / Ah seng

mowk tolong us . Thank Lord ! puji tuhan ( ko jako vann )

akher nya cekgu norfirdaus

menunai kan janji nya . haha

KFC kami telah selamat masok ke dalam perut .

haha wee~ sedap . best ! haha

we all share with the entire group there .

kecuali class ujung . bukan we all mok sombong .

x cukup bha . sikit jak . haha plus they all keep on sindir us all bha .

salah kha we all diam diam jak ? sott . if we all gila later they say gila . !

padan muka just now we all keluar kan taring . haha

we all buat bunyi serunai that one .

macam africa youu ! seriously ! haha

deyh dari awal sampai petang .

my krek geng suma gila ambik gambar .

abis full my memory .

x alang alang . ambik kdrik from my beg . haha

syukk theu all ambik gambar sendiri . haha

damn ! i love them . haha

bloggie . tadi baru jak vann cakap .

no need to text HIM . KEITH .

something will happen .

so i was like . WHY ?

she say let guy text you first .

if he really loves you .

then i say AMEN .

hopefully he'll text me .

jeng jeng ! hp ku berbunyi .

OMG !!!! BABUN !! kuat me jerit . haha

KEITH OWEN NELSON ?
i tampar my palak . wakaka

vann blurr jak . haha

i hug vann from the back . haha

i say thank you so many time to her .

VANNESSA NOAMI :)

Keith at miri now . yeah !

adoo . macam x percaya me . haha

still xpat percaya untill now .

terus me melompat dari tangga pergi abigail .

haha sott kan ? well monyet in love bha . haha

i geram but i love this word ::

i came back for you idiot ! haha . i miss u .

wahh ! i was like aww . haha sott .

cikgu sanu kan depan me .

she ask why . then i say happy .

apoo . sott . naseb sempat cover .

i say happy got KFC . haha

she just smile and laugh . haha

kamu nie ada2 jak velintina .

me just senyum lebar lebar . haha :)))

aww . he called me :)

wee~~ happy syukk ! crazyy ! haha

iskh ! x guna kelas belakang . haha

they keep on screaming . haha

after he abis call me .

me join sekaki . haha

ARGHH ! yeah ! our team menang . haha

bloggie . ayoi got 3 gold medals :)

1 trophy . OLAHRAGAWAN UUUUUU !

shit ! haha we all happy gilak for him .

he mala jak say harap harap dpt .

then i keep on saying amin amin amin .

Praise the Lord . ianya menjadi nyata :)

PERDANA . my rumah sukan JOHAN lagi youu !

adoo . bloggie . adoo .

what else can i say ?

ADOOOOOOOOO !

saya terlalu gembira hari ini :)

banyak gilak surprise bha . haha

ily keith !

BLOGGIE !

dengan bangga nya sekali saya menyatakan bahawa saya SUNBURN !

ahaha . gosh ! today was fun + boring + fun :)

weee~ sott bha we all :)
bloggie , i baru tauk yang amirul's house depan jak umah KEITH ?

ahaha . lambat ciwta me . i baru tauk today .

ahaha . sott eyy me . adoo .

day by day makin banyak ciwta bout you .

why ? why ? why ?
people just can't stop talking .

at the same time i can't stop asking too . hahaha

dehh ! VELINTINA RAMEH ::

:: sila ke tempat pendaftaran untuk larian pecutan 100 meter .

akai ! nyak ya bulih .

dah me try to avoid . ahaha pa gik my fren mok tapok kan me . ahaha

meyla pula sakit perut just now . ahaha

lawak btol la the keadaan . then . dush ! sian plak we all tengok

mdm.sanu :( so pergi daftar jak la me .

along the way i jumpa abie .

ahaha ! lawak sungguh di sini .

me kenak lecture . adoo . He x suroh me lari .

semua kelihatan takut melihat ku melangkah ke track itu .

hahaha you know how i reply ?

i say yep ! then he say aeh ? knk ? then me senyum jak :P haha

youu ! i got 4th place . ahhaa

kira untung la . dah la semua atlit bha with me .

damn ! susah eyy . 6 org gk ya ! boom .

me jak yang plajar biasa there .

awal gik i say i got last . ahaha

x sangka got 4th place . wee~ syukk me .

balik balik jak from track me kena soal siasat .

haha saya oke saja la . :P

sempat juak me terkejut sikit .

kenak the pistol punya bunyi .

BABI KO MELETUP ! haha ya jak me sebut . wakaka

adoo . mok ketawa me ingat ingat eyy .

sott eyy . haha

bloggie . me and vann .

kenak spon bayen . ahhaa

well muka x tauk malu bha .

we both pokai dyy so cari them .

actually mok cari akik (howard) bha .

tapi x jumpa bha . mesti dating with anish . hmm

akik change alot . he lupa his janji . :( so sad .

bia la org di lamun cinta bha . just buat buat x tauk la . ahha

tomorrow sukan gik ! we all plan mok g paxen jap .

ahaha mok lunch there .

OUH PARKSON ! last memories ~ good + bad . hmm

NO COMMENT . hahaha

yea yea ! bloggie awang bawa ole ole for us .

kan he go for sukma at melaka .

pa gik karate la . haha

the best ! wee i got a doll key chain . cute !

kak sya majuk bha . x cukup awang punya hadiah jstnow .

hadiah for cikgu sanu paling best .

ad ukiran nama cikgu sanu gik ya .

i sengaja bha kacau cikgu .

i say ::

me : cekgu ! awang bagi saya hadiah . neyyy ! cantek kan ?

ckgu : Cikgu pun ada . niee . cantek lagi .

then we all laugh . wakaka mmg cantek la .

pandai awang cari hadiah for us . :)
Thank you awang .

thank you amirul ariff juak .

why ?

well you are the most annoying person on earth that we krk n bestari have ever known .

but you are still the greatest of all :)

he payung kan me all day long .

he say he will jaga me . but today jak . haha

mowk payung jak bha . dushh ! sott . ahha

abis my palak kenak cucuk the payung eyy .

adoo . bloggie . nantok me ody .

nite nite . muah . :)

lelah . tomorrow i'll post some picture okay ?

today i didn't bring my cammie . waa

nite nite !

*missing you ghost !

Reasons why i hate to online lately :(

~ there was no you .

~ i lost my ghost !

~ first name that appear in my friend list would always be you .

*why ?

~ seeing your picture . missing you more and more each day .

*missing all of those moment .

hoping for you too feel the same .

i can't erase it just like that from my mind .

i even can't delete all of your text messages .

i'm losing my mind ?

[ i guess no ]

i'll be strong . don't you worry :)

*wink wink . haha

bloggie .

tomorrow is my school sport day .

haha yahoo ! wee ~ x sabar .

but then , BORING bha .

no hp , no cammie . dushh !

like care ! haha bawa jak we all . haha

adoo ! awal awal buka skol dah kluar gossip gossip panas !

huh ! TERIMA KASIH YA WAHAI PELAJAR !

hahaha CIKGU tok pun sorang , heh !

menambah kan kefemesan ku di sekolah .

ada kah patut nya gossip kan aku ngan ex ku ?

damn ! naseb nya cikgu kesayangan ku . ehe :)
dari awal taun sampai now .

nama ku jak mala kenak sebut lam kls 3A .

shit ! dah la kelas ya sebelah jak kelas ku .

tadi sempat juak ku dengar dawk nya jerit nama ku .

HELL-LO ! nya dah ada grk baru oke . haha

VICTOR MARSHALL is history .

he curang first . then he got new gf first .

Nigel ? huh ! perlu kah nama itu muncul kembali ?

hahaha miss vanessa la punya pasal .

got this new guy form 2 .

from nigeria baru pindah to smkL .

ada kah patut me yang di tanyak dolok ?

wtf ?! why me ? haha

yea i know him . jsnw . HAHAHA !

kebetulan he sesat cari kelas . he tanyak me . so i help la .

so innocent his face . haha muka muka senang kena buli :P
hahahaha ! jahat sungguh diriku ini . wakaka

we all one geng krk and bestari semua syukk ciwta ciwta about tomorrow sport day .

then , JENG JENG JENG ~~

me diam seribu bahasa .

That EFAN punya pasal .

waaa . :( CHIEY CHIEY oso sama . huh !

they suddenly ask me about KEITH .

efan ask me where he school now .

i said la St.Thomas . then chiey pulak tanyak how me and him ?

huh . susah . complicated . dengan tidak rela hati . haha

ku menjawab begini .

:::::: Baca dik status fb ku :P

HAHAHAHA ! then i laugh . :P

kura kura dalam perahu pura pura tidak tahu .

wekk ! xpa xpa . i still love you all . haha

i FORGIVE you .

wee ~ bloggie .

tomorrow miss Norfridaus spon us .

well not all of us .

only me , nicky , amy and efan .

me and nicky menang best actor and actress .

amy and efan oso . plus for being very active in class .

hahaha . well , that what i do best .

yeah ! mamy and dady akher nya lulus kan me pegi sekolah seni .

hahahaha FINALLY ! this year me mok apply gk .

prepare for next year :)

sayang bha ! last year and last last year i got tawaran oso .

but mamy and dady reject . so sad .

without telling me gk ya .

adoo . tapi me syg dah with smkl .

dunnoe yet la what to do . haha

let just go on with the flow :)

nite nite bloggie .

love you . muah muah !

*missing you

bloggie . :)

akher nya me pat online .
tapi not really online la . haha
NO FACEBOOK ! waaa . mamy ada at blakang .
hmm . blogging jak la me .
huh ! 2 days blonggie .
dua hari sudah tanpa dia .

then i ask myself .

apoo velen ! 1 hari jak u ody cry .

pa gik 1 month ! huh . xkan 30 days ya mok nggis jak .

so me kuat kan semangat .

paling pelik . diriku bersemangat hendak ke sekolah .

sebab ku menunggu sebulan yang akan tiba itu .
waaa :( hahaha ku tetap meneruskan
kehidupan seperti biasa .
apoo ! everything that i do .
remind me of him . even things that people
sebut oso me boleh ingat kan nya . hmm
yesterday , during my nite prayer .
i pray for him . then suddenly , i cried .
i don't know why ? so i ask for God protection .
hope he'll be fine there .
weee ! hahaha he said that at the end of july
he will be schooling back in MIRI yaww ! haha
Gosh ! terkejut me . harap harap jadi . AMEN !
lain bha rasa without him .
i mean like before , walaupun we both fight .
x pernah pun x msg or chat langsung .
hahaha seriously it feels so different !
tidak mengapa la .
MARSHALL JUNIOR sentiasa menemani ku .
hahaha ! my mamy tengok ody that teddy bear .
tapi she x tanyak apa apa .
hmmm dari tadi me dengar lagu
the last something that meant anything .

bukan me mok jiwang jiwang la .

dah that song jak yang tetiba muncul in my head .

you know bloggie .

yesterday sampai jak in class i hug everyone :)

KECUALI lelaki . haha with them maen tumbuk jak .

ahaha . gosh ! rindu la with them .

paling x sangka la . we all x kena bom pun ! haha

yeaa ! Thanks be to God ! :)

nite nite bloggie . wanna go to bed now .

:) muah ! . [missing you] *keith !

LAla is with me :)

weirdo ! :p

Angela liza

babun !

how can i forget you when your always in my mind ?

how can i not want you when your all i want inside ?

how can i let you go when i can't see us apart ?

how can i not love you when you control my heart ?

- jiwang mode -

someone laugh at me just now .

i ask why ? they say 'please la , don't act like you don't know anything' .

actually . yeaa . i don't really get it . haha

then so i laugh along . hahaha

plus a drop of tear . haha

A tear ! haha cause ryan was there .

wee~ baby sitting ryan was fun !

Ryan my nephew . 9 month old only !

so cute ! haha

he LOVES my phone . ahha

don't know why .

he just get so excited when he see it .

gosh ! i miss him already .

auntie will see you again okay ?

someday . hahaha

Life . *sigh humm .

HARD ! hahaha

well as usual i'll laugh !

HAHAHAHA :)

i LOVE laughter .

when i cried i'll laugh .

when i laugh i'll laugh some more .

when i feel bored i'll laugh alone .

CRAZY ? yea ! thats me ! :))

good night bloggie .

weee ~ homework mode ~ tomorrow .

now , i'm ready to go to my bed . haha

bed , i'll come to you . :D

good night :) muah !

POSITIVE VELEN !

TRY TO BE POSITIVE AGAIN !

deh ! gila me lama lama .

pa kena ngan aku tok ?

adoo . rapuh alu eyy .

bagi malu empuan jak .

hahaha sempat gk tetaq .

lawk nggis gik .

congek ! babun congek !

hahahaha adoo .

lawk ada prayer pakey aku and czn ku .

czn ku sambong blaja .

aku ? xtauk la .

tetiba dawk nya mdh mok plh prayer k aku .

adek ku mdh coz ku dah gila ?

huh ! gila la ? hahaha

salah kha ku tetaq + nggis + cakap sorang2 ?

that is very normal .

mun ku x polah kdk ya aku makin stress bha .

adoo . sott bha .

knk la semua nowk ku plh ingat kan aku ngan nya ?

sedeh . hahaha xpa xpa .

sementara saja ini . haha

nggis la sampai air mata mu kering .

biar la waktu mengubat segala nya .

chewah ! haha berjiwang jak keja ku .

gosh ! datang skol minta pelok geng ku !

hahahaha kak sya , kak nia , daph , pae , chelle ,

manda , zirah , taty , aen , dale , amy , pearl

geng pelok ku . :)

*hugs ! dari marek ku cari org pkey hug .

xda juak . haha hancur harapan ku .

sapa suroh ku bodo glk . haha

dah dah . cukup dah kwu nganok dri ritok .

xda guna gk nyesal . now move forward .

MOVE AHEAD GO BEYOND :)

hahahahha love velen ~

fever attack ! shit !

urgh ! sakit sakit sakit .

di dalam dan di luar .

ku sangkakan diri ku kuat .

namun ternyata buka sahaja

facebook air mata yang mengalir .

ya . diri ku ingin paham .

namun hati ku tidak mahu .

sudah begitu pedih dibuat nya .

tidur ku tidak lena .

hanya berteman kan marshall junior dengan air mata .

mimpi yang begitu indah sekali malam tadi .

tetapi bila aku bangun ~

betapa kecewa nya diri ku .

semua itu hanya la mimpi .

mimpi indah yang selalu akan ku semat di hati .

i'm trying to move on now .

they don't want me .

let it be . its the end of any relationship

for me this year . i though it would last long .

but no . it didn't . it only last for 25 days .

so sad . i can't change anything .

i tried . but i'm just to weak .

dah VELEN ! wipe away your tears .

dah xda guna kamu menangis .

semua nya berakhir .

jangan la menyimpan harapan lagi .

selamat tinggal sayang .

FUN TIME :)

bloggie . hahaha today . kira boleh tahan la .

hahha we all kenak kan mabel and garry . haha

adoo . lawak bha . mabel cakap 'Hye' terus merah muka .

hahaha mabel malu ? haha

thats the only words that come out from my mouth :p

sott keja . haha

we all ketawa jak along the way .

hahhaa :P

wee ~ sebelom balik sempat gik Keith ambik mabel and garry punya photo.

hahhaa senyum senyum jak garry . adoo . me mowk tetaq kuat kuat sena nya . haha

tapi control . haha sott me . adeyh . hahaha

sampai now i still ketawa ingat kan today .

TODAY WAS GILA ! hahhaa

penuh malu malu and laughter . :)

bloggie .

let us all be friends .

saya terima kenyataan itu . :)

My Brother . :)

saya akan sentiasa ingat kata kata awak .

kalau dia masih sayang awak . dia akan tunggu awak .

walaupun suatu perpisahan itu menyakit kan .

jangan la bersedih .

kerana hikmah dari cobaan itu

akan lebih mengembira kan mu nanti :)

saya percaya dengan kata kata ini .

terima kasih :)

yea i'm sad .

yea i'm broken .

yes i'm crying .

yes i'm weak .

yea i fall down .

yes i stand again .

velen . xmok menaggis lagi .

velen . xmok naggis ! paham ? hahhaa

veln mok ketawa . HAHAHAHAHAHA!

lepas semua duka . hahaha

berpura pura ?

tidak , saya tidak berpura pura .

saya ingin kan azam baru .

jagan risau aku tetap setia menanti .

kenapa ? hanya diriku yang tahu .

bangun la velen dari katil mu itu .

lap la air mata duka yang membawa beribu penyesalan .

bangun la velen !

jangan engkau duduk termenung mimikir kan yang lalu .

biar la rintihan sang hujan membasahi pentas dunia dengan tangisan nya .

namun enngkau harus bangun . hahaha

sottt ! dah la ketawa sorng sorang .

cakap sorang sorang . hahaha

i look funny when i cry . haha

my nose jadi merah . haha

lawak la i see myself . haha

sott . dah gj babun ! ketawa time !

hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha :)

seperti yang ku sangka kan .

dua ekor monyet yang selalu mencari pasal dengan ku la orang pertama yang akan mencari ku . dalam aku sedang kerisauan . pasti ada mereka menghibur ku .

gelak tawa yang di iringi tangisan syahdu menyemarak kan lagi erti persahabatan .

abie and bayen . sangat sangat menyakit kan hati .

at the same time tauk tauk jak bila me sedeh .

time me happy . x pernah pernah they all msg me .

time me sedeh ada jak there for me .

i wish i could erase today .

once again me menyesal .

thanks abie n bayen .

i'll be fine .

bloggie .

today turn out to be different .

me balik late .

good thing mamy x marah .

damn ! stupid breath !

gara gara xpat nafas just now i don't have mood .

i try to control it by walking faster .

just now, time keith, mabel, raphel and garry

they all hantar me to the bus stop .

i jalan depan sekali .

sakit btol my hati just now .

huh ! me dapat rasa my badan makin sejuk .

sapa suroh me x makan ubat this morning .

sial alu bha ! mesti now he salah paham .

then just now , i text him .

i say come here .

actually i mowk tell him pal me xda mood .

tetiba jak i rasa x perlu la tell him .

takut he risau pulak .

gosh ! now me rasa serba salah pulak x cakap .

stupid velen ! stupid velen !

now i cannot focus on my study .

rasa mok jerit jak .

x nyaman betol me rasa now .

i think he marah bha .

i'm sorry . truly sorry .

i him text but x reply .

then at his wall he put .

sorry means nothing ! fuck !

me terasa ? ofcoz i terasa .

i said sorry bha just now .

velen .

be strong . don't cry .

dah dah . jangan tunjuk kan kelemahan mu itu .

waaa :'(

mamy tengok me cry just now .

tapi she x cakap pa2 .

i cakap i got flu oni .

harap harap oke la after this .

oh Lord , guide me .

help me to go through with this .

i hope he'll understand my real situation .

amen . :(

*sobbing . :'(

GET THIS ?

It is not love that is blind, but jealousy.

get that ? hahahha

yea i'm jealous . so ?

and i'm trying not to be jealous .

why ? because jealousy causes troubles !

Yet i was jealous,

though i did not show it,

For jealousy dislikes the world to know it.

Thank you dear :)

THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU :)

i love you i love you i love you <3

haha haha haha

bloggie :)
yesterday , for the first time in my life ,
i cry in the phone while talking to a guy !
FIRST TIME ! hahaha its HIM btw . him ?
yeaa him . KEITH ! hahaha
why am i crying ?
well i told the truth to him .
about my sickness .
daddy , mammy , life . adoo .
i don't know why . but i know i can trust him .
he made me laugh again . haha
and keep on smiling and blushing at the same time .
weee~ you know what .
the only thing that i say was i don't know . entah .
hahaha He ask me why i like him .
well , not so sure .
but i love him for who he is .
the way he treat me .
how he understand me .
sometimes he knows when i'm sad or angry
without hearing my voice .
weird ar ? well i love him . haha
pendek kata . i love him . haha
banyak la our cerita yesterday .
bout his ex , his life , banyak la .
hee :) well at least he x takut sharing bha .
jealous ? eyyhh ! nooooo . haha
a bit ? ehe . maybe . hahhaa
adoo . gila me sudah . haha
bloggie . today kan . he jadi babysitter .
hahaha PADAN MUKA ! :p
he jaga his 2 nephew .
pandai juga him jaga ouh . hee
HBY ! i'm proud of you . hahhaa
ily :)

-correction-

-VELINTINA RAMEH AK MELING-

bloggie . i miss my school .

i miss it very very much .

i can't wait to see all of my friends .

but then , homeworks ! urgh !

haven't done that . haha

why ? simple .

i'm LAZY !

haha

Bloggie . i'm abit confuse just now .

glad its over . haha

tomorrow is my last outing .

i really want want to see Keith again .

its the only thing i wish right now .

at the same time ~~

i want to go out with Pae .

sorry sis . can't go out with you tomorrow .

they all go beach bha . i can't come .

good thing she understand me .

i owe you this time sista :)

ily Emily Chua <3

dohh ! tomorrow will be a busy day .

why ? well because firstly ,

at 10 i have to go to boulevard first to see fyona .

she suroh teman her to buy Selvester punya hadiah .

adeyhh . from last month lagi she plan .

i can't say no . adoo . so i'll follow her first .

then baru la i jumpa Keith :)

at where ? not sure yet . haha

ily :)

kehidupan penuh cerita :)

It's only when we truly know and understand

that we have a limited time on earth

and that we have no way of

knowing when our time is up

that we will begin to live

each day to the fullest

as if it was the only one we had.

well i'm not giving up yet .

i'm too young to be this weak .

chayok ! :)

bloggie .

something unexpected had happen today .

i don't want it to happen again .

it is just too hard .

the only thing that i can do now is to kept silence .

only four person knows what i'm talking about .

seriously , i don't want to live with that FACT !

i just couldn't believe it .

i don't want to eat that yucky medicine my whole life .

sekarang , aku hanya bisa duduk diam .

tanpa ada kata kata .

tidak membalas sebarang pertanyaan mengenai hal itu .

hati ini begitu perih apabila diriku

harus menerima kenyataan bahawa ku lemah .

kelemahan ku selama ini yang telah

membuat banyak orang ketawa .

tidak kah mereka sedari .

gelagat ku itu telah menumpas kan

diriku ke dalam satu kesakitan yang amat perih ?

sungguh ku tidak menyangka

ianya datang kembali menghantui hidup ku

setelah berbulan engkau pergi .

ternyata kembali juga

hanya dengan satu jeritan yang kuat

dari para permain pentas dunia .

sungguh aku kecewa dengan diriku

tidak terdaya melawan keberadaan mu

bloggie . you understand or not what am i trying to tell you here ?

well . it's very complicated to tell actually .

its me ! it hurts so much .

feels like something bitting it right now .

feels like it had been thorn into parts .

ouch ! couldn't you feel it ?

i'm suffering my sickness again .

and i don't want this .

last year was enough .

i don't want it to attack me again this year .

good night . i guess i need to sleep now .

xoxo :'(

song sharing by keith . again ! :)

1. on my own - the used

2. its hard to say - the used

3. by your side - tokio hotel

4. NOT FOR ME ! dedicated to NIGEL .

face down - the red jumpsuit apparatus

5. i caught fire - the used

6. blue and yellow - the used

7. pieces - sum 41

8. best of me - sum 41

9. bleed - hot chelle rae

10. anywhere but here - mayday parade

11. still breathing - mayday parade

12. the last something that meant anything - mayday parade

that all for tonite . haha

hahaha :)

i copied and pasted it at here !

K : hot (wewitt ! haha)
E : has gorgeous eyes
I : is really sweet & romantic
T : a smile to die for
H : stick to one

O : has one of the best personalities ever
W : can be funny and dumb at times
E : has gorgeous eyes
N : is a very good kisser too!

baju purple

pa ku polah time tok ouh ? denga music kali.

gambar last year . haha

baju puteh

bloggie . i miss tok bha . my eyes here . adoo .

wearing my purple lens :) lens . i miss you .

now i'm only allow to use the transparent color .

waaa :) look how big my pupils are . hahaha

i love it ! :)

Bapa kepada

MARSHALL JUNIOR :)

kebahagiaan :)

bloggie . weeee~~

i felt very lucky today .

like i'm the only lucky person ever .

the most luckiest day .

hahaha

i think so .

well first ,

it all started with the RETURN of us :)

who is us ?

think by yourself . haha

it was this morning .

5 a.m on 15.06.10 :)

then mamy was in a very good mood .

we have breakfast outside .

then shops for curtains for the new house .

i even get to choose my own curtains .

syuukk . hahaha :D

then i don't even ask for reload yet .

suddenly she gave me rm10 .

to reload . ? wow ! haha

mom can read our mind .

we have to be careful . haha

then we go home .

at home . i didn't do any thing .

i was busy msg-ing with someone .

as always . i keep on smiling and mumbling alone .

hahaha i guess this what we call as ANGGAU for love .

get it ? hahaha man ! i'm in love .

i'm not gonna tell you the whole thing bloggie .

haahaha the important parts only .

okay ? hahaha

well . i guess this time .

i would like to keep it for myself .

but , i don't think i can do so.

because i know , i'm not gonna stop

writing when i get really excited .

plus i'm not a SILENCE type of a girl.

i talk a lot . more than a lot . hahah

Vannessa Noami

Is Veronica Velintina Rameh talkative?

damn talkative !

nahh ! prove . hahaha

mamy say today i cannot sleep late.

buhue :( wanna see brazil play bha .

dushh ! i have to follow mamy to do my passport .

going to brunei bebeh ! hahaha

plus i'm the only one without passport .

all of my family got it last 3 years .

so not fair . ! hahaha

bah bah bloggie . mok jaga ANAK lok .

teddy bear . haha

:)