bloggie .

something unexpected had happen today .

i don't want it to happen again .

it is just too hard .

the only thing that i can do now is to kept silence .

only four person knows what i'm talking about .

seriously , i don't want to live with that FACT !

i just couldn't believe it .

i don't want to eat that yucky medicine my whole life .

sekarang , aku hanya bisa duduk diam .

tanpa ada kata kata .

tidak membalas sebarang pertanyaan mengenai hal itu .

hati ini begitu perih apabila diriku

harus menerima kenyataan bahawa ku lemah .

kelemahan ku selama ini yang telah

membuat banyak orang ketawa .

tidak kah mereka sedari .

gelagat ku itu telah menumpas kan

diriku ke dalam satu kesakitan yang amat perih ?

sungguh ku tidak menyangka

ianya datang kembali menghantui hidup ku

setelah berbulan engkau pergi .

ternyata kembali juga

hanya dengan satu jeritan yang kuat

dari para permain pentas dunia .

sungguh aku kecewa dengan diriku

tidak terdaya melawan keberadaan mu

bloggie . you understand or not what am i trying to tell you here ?

well . it's very complicated to tell actually .

its me ! it hurts so much .

feels like something bitting it right now .

feels like it had been thorn into parts .

ouch ! couldn't you feel it ?

i'm suffering my sickness again .

and i don't want this .

last year was enough .

i don't want it to attack me again this year .

good night . i guess i need to sleep now .

xoxo :'(