bloggie .

today turn out to be different .

me balik late .

good thing mamy x marah .

damn ! stupid breath !

gara gara xpat nafas just now i don't have mood .

i try to control it by walking faster .

just now, time keith, mabel, raphel and garry

they all hantar me to the bus stop .

i jalan depan sekali .

sakit btol my hati just now .

huh ! me dapat rasa my badan makin sejuk .

sapa suroh me x makan ubat this morning .

sial alu bha ! mesti now he salah paham .

then just now , i text him .

i say come here .

actually i mowk tell him pal me xda mood .

tetiba jak i rasa x perlu la tell him .

takut he risau pulak .

gosh ! now me rasa serba salah pulak x cakap .

stupid velen ! stupid velen !

now i cannot focus on my study .

rasa mok jerit jak .

x nyaman betol me rasa now .

i think he marah bha .

i'm sorry . truly sorry .

i him text but x reply .

then at his wall he put .

sorry means nothing ! fuck !

me terasa ? ofcoz i terasa .

i said sorry bha just now .

velen .

be strong . don't cry .

dah dah . jangan tunjuk kan kelemahan mu itu .

waaa :'(

mamy tengok me cry just now .

tapi she x cakap pa2 .

i cakap i got flu oni .

harap harap oke la after this .

oh Lord , guide me .

help me to go through with this .

i hope he'll understand my real situation .

amen . :(

*sobbing . :'(